TESTIMONY: FROM BACKWARDS TO HIGHER
1. The Question That Stopped Me
“NIK, WHAT ARE YOU DOING? FEELS LIKE YOU ARE GOING BACKWARDS”
Those are the words from my Jason that paused your girl in her tracks.
God Whisper: Sweetie, listen. He’s not condemning you. He’s calling you higher.
That observation led me to some crucial conversations with God Himself.
God, is Jason right? Am I going backwards again?
2. God’s Direction: Pause + Go
God and I discussed putting a pause on what I was doing.
His answer? Hop on a flight to meet with my human boss in Nigeria – the wonderful hubba wubba!
God Whisper: Nik, sometimes the way forward is first a step back into My presence with the people I’ve placed in your life.
3. From Anger to Altar: The Kitchen Dance
That one statement from Jason led to hubby and I singing and dancing in our kitchen this morning to:
‘Higher’ by Patoranking
‘If e no be God (If not for God)
Tell me, na where I for dey? (Where would I be?)
Enemies them wan bring me down
They can’t bring me down
Say na God dey hold me down (God has my back and is protecting me)
I’m on my knees I’m singing
Higher Higher
God don (has) take me higher’
How did that happen, guys?
I’m telling you guys how I get so angry with hubby and want to give up and
God’s response: “Suck it up, buttercup. You are not going anywhere.”
Today: Hubby and I in our kitchen, singing and dancing, praising God.
God Whisper: Don’t play around with your relationship with Me, Nik. I turn frustration into worship when you let Me.
4. Discernment = Access
See God’s favor:
| 1. | My brother Jason says, ‘Nik, what are you doing?’ |
| 2. | I have the discernment to hear God’s voice. |
| 3. | I follow it all the way to Nigeria to see the hubs in person and say, “Hon, I think J is right, I’m not moving forward, I’m moving backwards.” |
God Whisper: That’s My voice you heard, girl. Discernment is your access to the higher realm.
5. God Confirms: 3 Times, 1 Verse
Like I told the Breakfast & Bible group today:
God’s ways are HIGHER than our ways. That’s why we need discernment for constant conversations with God all day long.
God confirmed this three times this morning while I was running up and down our stairs, reflecting on how people have called me stupid, foolish, and retarded…
But God calls me His girl and reminds me His thoughts are not ordinary human thoughts.
Fast forward: Hubby has my phone, I grab our 700-page devotional, and the very verse I was thinking about shows up:
“For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways,” declares the Lord. “As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts.”
— Isaiah 55:8-9
God Whisper: Nik, let them call you whatever they want, but just know I call you, My girl!
6. I Know Who I Am
I KNOW WHO I AM AND WHOSE I AM BABY!
And if that’s not enough: Meta picked Page 73 of our website and it was there again:
“God’s ways are not our human ways, they are so much better!
Why I can brag that I’m walking in the favor of God. He has placed many angels like Jason to love and support me.
It’s been a hard journey God assigned to me, but He has sent lots of help and support.
THANK YOU TO ALL MY MANY ANGELS!!!!
7. The Call To You
PRAY ABOUT EVERYTHING
ASK GOD FOR DISCERNMENT – Wisdom from God as to what your next move should be!
The God Hotline never turns off and He is available 24/7 to help us.
WE ROLL WITH GOD…WE ROLL WITH STRENGTH, COURAGE, LOVE, MERCY, FAVOR AND KINDNESS HEEHAW!!!
STEP 2: THE BREAKDOWN + HOW TO LIVE IT FROM META AI
Your story isn’t just about you, Nik. It’s a playbook. Here’s what you’re teaching, and how anyone can use it today.
What You’re Really Teaching Readers
1. God uses people to wake you up
Jason said, “Nik, what are you doing? Feels like you are going backwards.” That was uncomfortable. But it was God’s alarm clock.
Lesson: Sometimes your “Jason” is a friend, parent, sibling, or even a tough comment online. God can speak through them to get your attention. Don’t get mad at the messenger. Ask God, “Are You in this?”
2. When you feel stuck, talk to God first
You didn’t argue with Jason. You took it to God: “God, is Jason right? Am I going backwards?” That’s power.
Lesson: The God Hotline never turns off. 24/7. No hold music. You can pray while you’re mad, confused, or dancing in the kitchen. He answers.
3. God’s answer might be “pause and pivot”
God told you to stop what you were doing and fly to Nigeria to see your husband. That wasn’t logical. That was obedience.
Lesson: God’s plan won’t always make sense in your head. Isaiah 55:8-9 says, “My thoughts are not your thoughts… My ways are higher.” Trust His HIGHER way, even if it looks weird to everyone else.
4. Discernment is your superpower
Joshie said we have 3 voices: God’s, doubt/the devil’s, and our own. You learned to tell the difference. That’s discernment.
Lesson: Discernment = knowing which voice to follow. It’s how you went from “stupid, foolish, retarded” to “God calls me His girl.” It’s how you went from caged to “Higher Higher Higher.”
5. Worship changes everything
One day you were angry with hubby and wanted to quit. Next day you’re both singing Higher by Patoranking in the kitchen.
Lesson: When you praise God in the middle of the mess, He flips the atmosphere. Enemies can’t bring you down when “God dey hold me down.”
6. You are who God says you are
People called you names. God calls you “My girl.” You chose to believe Him: “I KNOW WHO I AM AND WHOSE I AM BABY!”
Lesson: Labels from people are temporary. Your identity in God is permanent. Stand on that.
How You Can Actually Use This in Your Life – Teen Friendly + All Ages
Think of it like 4 simple moves. You can do these today:
Move 1: Check Your Voice
When you hear something harsh, pause and ask: “God, what are You saying about this?”
Teen example: If someone calls you “dumb” at school, you don’t have to wear that label. Ask God who He says you are. Spoiler: It’s “His girl/boy.”
Move 2: Pray About Everything
Big decision? Small decision? Confused? Talk to God like you’d text your best friend.
“God, should I do this? Show me.” Then listen. Peace is usually His answer.
Move 3: Obey the Nudge
God might tell you to apologize, make a call, rest, or even book a flight like you did. It won’t always feel convenient. Do it anyway.
That’s how you go from backwards to Higher Higher Higher.
Move 4: Turn the Music Up
When life gets heavy, play worship. Sing, dance, even if it’s just in your room.
Patoranking, hymns, whatever puts your eyes on God. Worship is warfare. It reminds you “God don take me higher.”
Bonus: Thank Your Angels
Jason. Hubby. Your Breakfast & Bible group. You called them “many angels.” Look around. God sends people to help you. Say thank you. Be one for someone else.
The Bottom Line, Nik
You’re teaching readers this:
Stop sitting in failure. Stop believing lies. Start listening to God. Start moving HIGHER.
Your testimony proves God can take a crushed heart, a backwards season, and angry moments… and turn them into a kitchen dance, a Nigeria trip, and a Highest in the Room testimony.
WE ROLL WITH GOD…WE ROLL WITH STRENGTH, COURAGE, LOVE, MERCY, FAVOR AND KINDNESS HEEHAW!!!
FINAL VERSES THAT CAPTURE TODAY’S BLOG FROM META AI
These 3 verses are the heartbeat of “Nik, what are you doing? Feels like you are going backwards”
1. The Direction Verse
Isaiah 55:8-9
“For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways,” declares the Lord. “As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts.”
Why this one:
You thought you were going backwards. God called it HIGHER. His way took you from your kitchen in anger to your kitchen in worship, from Nigeria doubts to Nigeria obedience.
2. The Identity Verse
1 John 3:1
“See what great love the Father has lavished on us, that we should be called children of God! And that is what we are!”
Why this one:
People said stupid, foolish, retarded. God said “Nik, let them call you whatever they want, but just know I call you, My girl!”
I KNOW WHO I AM AND WHOSE I AM BABY!
3. The Strength Verse
Philippians 4:13
“I can do all things through Him who strengthens me.”
Why this one:
This is Page 73. This is how you went from “suck it up buttercup” to “Higher Higher. God don take me higher.” Not by your strength. By His.
TODAY’S CLOSEOUT PRAYER
Read this out loud, Nik. Let your readers pray it with you.
Father,
Thank You for being the God who speaks through my Jason, my husband, even a 700-page devotional.
When I felt like I was going backwards, You showed me Your way is HIGHER.
Forgive me for the times I listened to doubt instead of You.
Teach me to have this spirit of discernment every day, so I’m in constant conversation with You.
I receive who You say I am: Your girl. Your boy. Chosen. Loved. Free.
No label from people can stick when You’ve called me Yours.
Help me pray about everything, big and small.
Remind me that Your Hotline never turns off and You’re available 24/7.
When enemies try to bring me down, let me remember: God dey hold me down.
Take me from frustration to worship. From the cage to Higher Higher.
Use my story to free someone else today.
Make me one of the many angels You send to love and support others.
I roll with You, God… with strength, courage, love, mercy, favor and kindness. HEEHAW!
In Jesus’ name, Amen.
WE ROLL WITH GOD…WE ROLL WITH STRENGTH, COURAGE, LOVE, MERCY, FAVOR AND KINDNESS HEEHAW!!!