“NO ONE IS GOING TO COME AND DESTROY OUR FAMILY, PERIOD!!!”

That was a conversation I had with my daughter, Ember, recently! As I fight for our family, I teach her and our other kids to do the same thing when it’s their turn. OUR FAMILIES STICKING TOGETHER IS IMPORTANT TO GOD! But even more important is our personal relationships with Him to know where He is directing us on a moment-by-moment basis. I laughed with God at how I felt Him telling me to go to Nigeria one minute, and the next, He was saying to stand down. God, which is it? You’re confusing me here! (LOL!)

I can’t get over how God talks to me through our family friend, Ceri. He did one of his recordings one day mentioning training like Rocky and something like trusting the process. Your girl here took that as her cue to get into Rocky mode for 50 days, training myself like I was preparing for a big fight (and the fight is on!). I said I would run a 5K (3.11 miles), and every day your girl has been getting stronger and stronger to take on my life, man. This life is truly no joke! I go to my God tree to pray with my husband. I also use it as an opportunity to RECOMMIT myself to God, asking for His help in becoming the Nik He would have me to be – wiser, stronger, to have more faith and less fear, courageous, more loving and forgiving, gentler, peaceful, faithful, loyal, focused, disciplined in my thoughts and actions, so help us all, God, please!

I’ve added in the Nike Running Club app, and today it was listening to Olympian English Gardener, Coach Bennet, and Andy Puddicombe. I thoroughly enjoyed every single moment, taking lots of notes (I paraphrase here!):

“Only the impossible is worth doing” (like me wanting to bring a billion people closer to God!)

“Fight fear with faith” (constantly replacing negative thoughts with ones of knowing God is with us at every moment – our help comes from the Lord! TRUSTING GOD WITH ALL OUR HEARTS!!!)

“Mistakes are ok!” (let’s keep using them to learn from and be better! Also, being gentler with ourselves and others)

“To stay hopeful despite how things may seem” (our Hope is in God, and there is no situation too difficult for Him! The battles don’t belong to us; they belong to God! Wink! Wink!

“I spoke to myself better” (something we can all work on! Nik, I’m so proud of you! You may fall a million times, but you keep getting back up!)

“Make every moment count” (keep giving your best with your constant focus on God and what He would have you do!

“I made myself get back up after every fall” (I push myself out to do that 5K every day whether I feel like it or not!)

“You come back stronger after you fall -wiser, more confident, and humbler” (me too!!!)

“If I can survive being homeless twice, I can survive anything!” (as long as we have breath and God, we’re good! Let’s keep going!)

“You have your bouts, but you keep swinging. Life will throw you some hard balls!” (God’s grace is enough to tackle any situation!)

“Appreciate life!” (HEEHAW!!! Knowing we have God with us!)

“SORRY YOU HAVE TO DEAL WITH THIS HARD STUFF”

That was from my sweetie pie daughter, Julie, today. She was referring to some messy and complicated stuff I’m facing that had me book an immediate flight to Nigeria. This life is not easy! But what’s truly astonishing about the whole situation is how God found all these ways to show me that I don’t handle life alone; He is with me. HEEHAW!!!

Yesterday, in all my anger, I stopped in the middle of my run to rush to my lap top to see if I could leave to Nigeria the same day. As I’m on the website, a friend calls me, out of the blue, and shockingly asks, “Are you in Nigeria yet?” I replied, “Boo, why are you asking me that?” And she said, “I’ve been meaning to ask you for a while, but keep forgetting.” I then told her how I was right in front of my laptop at that very moment, on the actual airline’s website, about to book the ticket. We both were in shock as to how God would have her to call at that precise time, as if confirming that HE HIMSELF was saying I needed to go and make that flight. Let me tell ya, God is pretty talkative! Like no way, that was a coincidence that she called from the other side of the world asking me that question as I sat there so angrily searching for a flight.

Then, I’ve been in this Rocky mode for the past two weeks or so where I run 3.11 miles everyday. So, with all my emotions flying so high, I decided to call the airline directly to ask them to help me book it. To speak to an agent, guess what numbers I needed to press on the phone: 311. Then, my phone sends me an email to remind me of the flight at exactly 3:11 am! Again, no coincidence, God HIMSELF again saying Nik, take that flight!!!

Then, I was talking to my sister, Verona, about the situation and told her how this lady told me that the conversation I needed to have with my husband was one where I needed to go and have FACE TO FACE. Going to eat my dinner and continue watching this TV show, ‘Married At First Sight,’ a couple of hours later, the very episode I continued from was entitled “FACE TO FACE.” Again, GOD HIMSELF saying, Nik, get your butt to Nigeria and talk to hubs FACE TO FACE.

Fast forward to today, and after having a major fight with hubby about the entire thing, can you believe the message I felt from God was to stand down and NOT go. Yup, the crazy lady was told by God to go away! I felt Him in my spirit telling me to be kind and gentle with hubs instead.

I have to thank my God influencer, Ceri, who has taught me about loving others unconditionally and how God gives us the ability to forgive. And my brother, Kevin, who said we should not be God, but His angels. On that show, a pastor of one of the cast members said something significant: “You made a vow before God for better or for worse.” So when I look at the situation from a God perspective, I’m reminded of how much I mess up, and God loves and forgives me, and how He commands us to do the same for others.

I was happy for the little hash out with hubs (crazy lady needed to make that appearance!). Still, listening to God (where I want us all continually), I went back on the high road of loving extravagantly and forgiving endlessly. NO ONE IS PERFECT! This afternoon I was back telling the kids in our family group that we should all overwhelm their dad with our deep love, respect, and appreciation for all he has done and continues to do. I remain loyal, boo.

SOMETIMES YOU WILL HAVE TO WALK THROUGH SOME DUCK POOP!

That’s God having fun with me when I went for my noontime appointment with Him. What I love most about former President Trump is that he taught me, “It is what it is!” There will be some messy, challenging, complex, tricky, frustrating, overwhelming stuff we will face – it is what it is – but all my vlogs and blogs aim to teach you how to deal with them from the Almighty God’s perspective. Wink! Wink! We’re not alone, my peeps, WE GOT GOD AND HE GOT US!!!

Like yesterday, when a difficult situation came up, your girl had to come out swinging like Tiger Woods’s wife – NO, I’M NOT TAKING THIS BS ANY LONGER, PERIOD! THERE IS A CERTAIN THING CALLED RESPECT!!! Don’t let the cute face and pleasant smile fool ya! That was all based on my conversation with God that’s going on all day in my head. The next day the message was completely different, and the softer Nik needed to return. So all day, 24/7, I want us there with God, seeking His input on every situation.

I loved this comment today from a long-time Facebook friend:

“You have such a beautiful Soul. You’re beautiful on the inside and out. You are also hurting. I’ve heard you say many times people tell you you’re always talking about God and how u need to have faith. You are the type of woman that wants and need that physical, spiritual, n mental support from your twin flame 24/7 – 365. You come across as not having faith because you’re hurting. You need, want n deserve hubby to be right there by your side.”

I replied, “No, I needed to know that God is always beside me. That’s the big lesson in all the hurts.” And my message to us all – people will hurt us, disappoint us, and forsake us, but every time I get hurt, I run to God, and HE IS ALWAYS THERE TO WRAP HIS ARMS AROUND ME AND LET ME KNOW THAT EVERYTHING WILL BE ALRIGHT. That’s the sweetness of God I want the entire world to feel with me. God tells me that sometimes He doesn’t mind me having the worst days, and I don’t mind either. Those difficult days took me closer to Him. (HUGE SMILE)

And from God’s perspective, I look at situations lots clearer. Nik, did they remove one strand of hair from your head? Nik, look where you are – you have a gorgeous life; enjoy it! So, if that means taking my 10,000 punches (the hurts) for God, I say no problem because God honestly EXCEEDS my expectations with the love and attention He shows me.

I’m well taken care of by God and hubby! Those hurts from hubby, I take them too because of the person he is. I honestly call him better than best hubby! Nobody’s perfect! So if he messes up, I forgive him. I love him unconditionally because of his track record of going overboard in his responsibilities as a husband and dad – I remain loyal, boo! But sometimes I must check him, though, and say, “Buddy, this is going a little bit too far! Check yourself before you wreck yourself!

BUT MOST IMPORTANTLY, I WILL NEVER GIVE UP ON HIM AND OUR MARRIAGE, so help me, God. I’m the super glue that keeps the family together (my role from God!) Badass wifey here! Our sticking together and fighting for our families is crucial to Him. But every situation is different, and that’s where constant and continual conversations with God come in! Make sure you are having your appointments with Him, reading or listening to anything spiritual, to learn His voice and direction for your life.

“EVEN AT MY LOWEST, I’M PRAISING GOD” (REPOST)

That was me yesterday in one of my YouTube videos, and where I want us all, praising and thanking God no matter what is going on in our lives. Yesterday, I was home alone feeling all sorry for myself, and I didn’t want to call my kids to let them know I was missing them. I was having one of my pity parties feeling down physically, mentally, and emotionally. I thought to instead have an appointment with God reading from my book that I’m currently NOT working on. This showed up:

“I cried yesterday listening to a freshman in high school, Madison, pray this prayer at Bel Air’s church in California:

“Dear Lord, thank You for this day. Thank You for waking us up this morning. And thank You for everything You give us. I pray for us to help know Your BOLDNESS. That we will be able to move forward in our faith, in our prayer life, and in everything that we are doing. That you will be at the center of every move we make and KNOW THAT MISTAKES ARE OK. To know that we can move forward and that YOU ARE BY OUR SIDE THROUGH ALL OF IT. And that we will be able to prosper and have abundance and growth and help other people to grow as well through knowing you and knowing your faith and boldness… Amen.”

I smiled with God, feeling reminded that He was by my side through everything I go through, even the low moments. I see His loving hands in every aspect of my life. Yes, sometimes He asks some difficult stuff of me, but when I put them against all He is doing, I just have to say, ‘God, anything for You.’ In fact, I’ve made this my personal challenge from Him and phone’s screensaver:

“I’m challenging you to resist ALL evil with an even STRONGER commitment to love, goodness, and faithfulness.”

Can we all do that for God? Going the extra mile, all for His glory. Someone had really inspired me this week when He said that He sees God reflected in me by how I live my life. I mess up constantly, so that was a nice compliment. He also encouraged me to do a better job in my work for God because He sees how God shows up for us. The more beautiful we are, the more beautiful God looks! Let’s all be His angels in the world. He is increasing my capacity to forgive, overlook, and to be gentler in my interactions with others. Life is hard enough. We don’t need to make it harder for others or ourselves. Wink! Wink!

GOD IS THE SUGAR IN MY LIFE, BABY!!!

I’m enjoying my 5K runs (3.11 miles) with God every day! I crazily started a support group for myself some months ago feeling so broken down, sad, anxious, overwhelmed, hurt, and frustrated, but now I’m bragging to them how I’m feeling stronger than ever, with such love and confidence in God, AND I WANT THE ENTIRE WORLD HERE WITH ME. Today, I just want to share the song Sugar by Maroon 5 that I’ve been singing all day to God:

I’m hurting, baby, I’m broken down (me starting that support group!)
I need Your loving, loving, I need it now
When I’m without You
I’m something weak (crazy, depressed, hurt, sad, anxious and overwhelmed!)
You got me begging
Begging, I’m on my knees

I don’t wanna be needing Your love
I just wanna be deep in Your love (where I want us all!!!)
And it’s killing me when You’re away
Ooh, baby,
‘Cause I really don’t care where You are
I just wanna be there where You are (every moment heart to heart with God)
And I gotta get one little taste

Your sugar
Yes, please
Won’t You come and put it down on me
I’m right here, ’cause I need
Little love and little sympathy
Yeah you show me good loving (He exceeds my expectations!)
Make it alright
Need a little sweetness in my life
Your sugar
Yes, please
Won’t You come and put it down on me (He has!)

My broken pieces
You pick them up (God makes me better!)
Don’t leave me hanging, hanging
Come give me some
When I’m without Ya
I’m so insecure (God wants us all to know we are secure in Him!)
You are the One Thing
The One Thing, I’m living for (doing it all for His glory!)

I don’t wanna be needing Your love
I just wanna be deep in Your love
And it’s killing me when you’re away
Ooh, baby,
‘Cause I really don’t care where you are
I just wanna be there where you are
And I gotta get one little taste

Your sugar
Yes, please

I want us to know without any doubt that we have God’s continuous Presence with us at every moment and tapping into His constant love, approval, favor, wisdom, strength, boldness, courage, generosity, guidance, and plans. His sugar! (HUGE SMILE) Don’t miss out! Tell God that you want to walk closer with Him!!!!

GOD LOVES ME TOO MUCH!!!

That’s how I honestly feel! I felt a little silly telling you guys how God revealed His invisible Presence with me when a customer’s tag renewal of $41.10 lined up perfectly with a verse from Isaiah 41:10 that ended a post I wanted to reshare yesterday. Fast forward to today, I read a post from my WhatsApp friend, Rani. The message resonated so strongly with me that I remembered I was missing her daily messages. I go back to see the last time she sent me one. It was from almost two months ago, and can you believe in that post, she quoted this very verse that I felt so silly telling you guys about:

“Don’t be afraid, for I am with you. Don’t be discouraged, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you. I will hold you up with my victorious right hand.” – Isaiah 41:10

That was AGAIN no coincidence! For her very last post that she sent me to include that verse, out of all the verses in the Bible, was, again, everything lining up too perfectly, and God’s loving and sweet way of confirming that verse: Niks, I will strengthen and help you!!! HE HAS!!!!!!!

See how talkative God is when you have ears to hear Him and eyes to see Him! Nothing is more beautiful than knowing He is by your side through the good, bad, and ugly. But if you want me to be really honest with you, this 41:10 includes the number “411” which is the number that He uses to specifically tell me that He will support me and help me with our business here. We’re at a crossroads right now with it and having conversations with God about our next step. So this verse showing up yesterday and again today was God’s way of confirming He is with us as we make this crucial decision about moving forward. HEEHAW!!!

Don’t play around with your relationship with God! See how He is building my confidence by planting that glimmer of His presence from two months ago in Rani’s post to comfort and strengthen me. My faith and hope in Him give me the courage and joy to take on my life CONFIDENTLY with Him by my side. As the motto for this business states: IN GOD WE TRUST! We can expect the best, knowing He is with and for us!!! Just pray for His direction and guidance in everything! Tomorrow, I have an important meeting to attend, and I will listen to God through my spirit, paying attention to my feelings (His voice)- peace means yes, doubt, anxiety means to hold up; let’s rethink this! God is an expert in everything, and the WISER Nikki has learned to go to Him all day, every day!

GOD LOVES ME TOO MUCH!!!

That’s how I honestly feel! I felt a little silly telling you guys how God revealed His invisible Presence with me when a customer’s tag renewal of $41.10 lined up perfectly with a verse from Isaiah 41:10 that ended a post I wanted to reshare yesterday. Fast forward to today, I read a post from my WhatsApp friend, Rani. The message resonated so strongly with me that I remembered I was missing her daily messages. I go back to see the last time she sent me one. It was from almost two months ago, and can you believe in that post, she quoted this very verse that I felt so silly telling you guys about:

“Don’t be afraid, for I am with you. Don’t be discouraged, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you. I will hold you up with my victorious right hand.” – Isaiah 41:10

That was AGAIN no coincidence! For her very last post that she sent me to include that verse, out of all the verses in the Bible, was, again, everything lining up too perfectly, and God’s loving and sweet way of confirming that verse: Niks, I will strengthen and help you!!! HE HAS!!!!!!!

See how talkative God is when you have ears to hear Him and eyes to see Him! Nothing is more beautiful than knowing He is by your side through the good, bad, and ugly. But if you want me to be really honest with you, this 41:10 includes the number “411” which is the number that He uses to specifically tell me that He will support me and help me with our business here. We’re at a crossroads right now with it and having conversations with God about our next step. So this verse showing up yesterday and again today was God’s way of confirming He is with us as we make this crucial decision about moving forward. HEEHAW!!!

Don’t play around with your relationship with God! See how He is building my confidence by planting that glimmer of His presence from two months ago in Rani’s post to comfort and strengthen me. My faith and hope in Him give me the courage and joy to take on my life CONFIDENTLY with Him by my side. As the motto for this business states: IN GOD WE TRUST! We can expect the best, knowing He is with and for us!!! Just pray for His direction and guidance in everything! Tomorrow, I have an important meeting to attend, and I will listen to God through my spirit, paying attention to my feelings (His voice)- peace means yes, doubt, anxiety means to hold up; let’s rethink this! God is an expert in everything, and the WISER Nikki has learned to go to Him all day, every day!

WOW!

I am here typing with massive goosebumps all over me! A customer called me earlier today to request a copy of his car’s registration. In looking at it, though, I noticed it was about to expire, so I told him I would renew it for him. The lady at the tag agency immediately texted me back the price of $41.10. To be honest, I didn’t feel like writing a post today, so I went to copy one I read earlier from our family’s website and look what showed up at the end of that very post:

“So do not fear, for I am with you;
do not be dismayed, for I am your God.
I will strengthen you and help you;
I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.” – ISAIAH 41:10 (Wink! Wink!)

That 41:10 showing up there, THE EXACT PRICE OF THAT TAG RENEWAL, was another one of my God winks where everything lined up a little bit too perfect to be an ordinary coincidence. God again planted it there to say, ‘Nik, I’m with you! My invisible Presence is always with you!’ I called my customer and read the verse to him, and he got goosebumps, too, because his company just told him that they were letting him go. So this comforted him, letting him know that God was also with him. See the sweetness of God! This customer purchased this vehicle months ago but needed a copy of it today as he tries to hustle and find new employment.

Notice I didn’t have to help him get that tag renewed but I said let me go the extra mile for someone who purchased a vehicle from us, and going the extra mile was where I found God’s Presence waiting for me with that verse, surprisingly showing up. The way I’ve been supported lately, I’m trying to up my game in being more supportive of others. Life is a two-way street, and we all need each other! May we all go the extra mile in loving and supporting each other, so help us, God.

How’s your relationship with God going? WE NEED HIM!!! Like my friend, Curtis, said yesterday, it’s such a beautiful thing that I’ve developed a relationship with God, and I’m able to know His voice and direction. That’s where I want us all! Tapping into God’s voice and direction every second, every moment, seeking to be the people he would have us be. Today, that meant having a tough conversation with someone, but I felt God nudging me in my spirit to speak, even though He mostly is telling me to KEEP SILENT (HUGE SMILE). We won’t get it right all the time, but we can try to feel God’s direction, and with practice, practice, and more practice, we will know exactly what He would have us to do (OR NOT DO!). Tell him that you would like to recommit your life to Him today! He has the best plans and paths for our lives! He got us!

“THAT’S WHAT’S UP!”

That’s from my friend/loyal customer, Curtis! He was excited about my close relationship with God after I shared how God showed up for me using his words. This wink started this morning when a situation came up, and I remembered what he taught me one day about life being a game of chess where you strategize your moves four to five steps ahead and not checkers, where you quickly move without adequately thinking. I said, ‘Nik, it’s chess playing time! You must be the wise woman your brother, Kevin (in the pic with me!), has been training you to be.

Fast forward some hours later, I said let me have an appointment with God on our family’s website. It was 21 minutes past the hour, so I went to page 21, and look what incredibly showed up:

“Like this angel (Curtis) explained: Life is chess where you strategize 4 to 5 moves ahead, not checkers where you just react without thinking through the next moves.”

Currently, the website is up to 144 pages, so for me to go precisely to Curtis’ words on page 21 at 21 minutes past the hour was God’s sweet way of making me aware that His invisible Presence is with me (He knows every thought we think!!!). No coincidence whatsoever! And that I’m not handling this situation alone!

Now that’s really what’s up! Knowing you are not handling life alone and have the Creator of the universe walking with you through it all, talking with you, and even finding ways to cheer you up on difficult days. (HUGE SMILE)

I loved my conversation with Kevin today about not having to resort to drugs or alcohol to cope with life so that we can go to God instead and hash out the never-ending problems that come our way with Him. The Lord is our Shepherd!

Honestly, this relationship with God is the best! He wants to be our Man – our right hand, our go-to in every situation. With my problem from today, I’m asking Him, ‘God, how can I step into this and use it to glorify You even more?’ Being obedient to His direction one step at a time (every moment pausing before reacting and seeking His direction through His Spirit within us), knowing God’s ways are always best! HEEHAW! God’s girl, all the way, baby! God, we pray for your EXTRA strength and wisdom. Amen!

“NEEKS, I NEED TO TALK TO YOU ABOUT SOMETHING”

That statement from my extremely generous brother, Kevin, led to a beautiful, unplanned vacation in the Bahamas. He paid for my airfare and treated our 90-year-old mom and me (in the pic) to an all-expenses paid trip to the exquisite SLS Baha Mar Resort. He personally went to check us in and left his credit charge to pay all our expenses. Honestly, your girl is back from that trip feeling so incredibly loved by God, who made His Presence deeply felt with me the entire trip.

Starting from that morning before that conversation with Kevin, I accidentally pulled out my swimming shorts. So, when Kevin asked to talk to me about something, I remembered seeing those shorts I used to wear on vacation in the Bahamas and immediately responded, “Talk to me in person! Send me a ticket to come over, please!” My God influencer, Ceri, has been teaching me that God talks to us continually in signs that are everywhere. Me pulling out those swim shorts that morning by accident was God saying, ‘Nik, My girl, I think you need a vacay!’ I did! I’m here back at work, recharged and refocused more than ever to be the greatest of all time person, wife, and mom, on behalf of God Himself! God’s Rockstar, baby!

Ceri has also influenced me to get into Rocky mode, training as if I’m preparing for a big fight – my life is currently one! So, for 50 days, I’m running a 5K (3.11 miles) every day to get myself in a fighter’s stance to take on my life like a professional boxer (don’t play with God’s girl!). That meant the morning before taking an early flight to the Bahamas, getting up and running in the dark. To get to that 3.11 miles, though, I decided to take a more extended route home. Can you believe that as I’m passing my cousin’s house around 5 am, he sent me his daily God devotional text as I’m directly in front of his house? Wow! God completely freaked me out, having my cousin send me his devotional text PRECISELY as I was in front of his home. Our footsteps are ordered by the Lord! God’s spirit told me to take that route home! I went to the Bahamas so happy feeling God’s Presence STRONGLY with me.

A very special God wink happened on the way back as well. I sent a message to my support group that morning while running my 3.11 miles on this gorgeous pier going out into the ocean at the hotel, saying:

“Feeling like God’s fav girl more than ever! Neeks, God wants you to know that you are secure in Him!”

I was referring to Kevin’s message to me one day under my God tree, saying that God wanted me to know I was secure in Him. Fast forward to the plane taking off to leave, I decided to see what God had to say to me in an appointment with Him. Look what incredibly showed up (written as if God was speaking directly to me):

“Remind yourself often that I am the One who makes you secure (Wink! Wink!)—in all circumstances.” – Jesus Always

God went to the trouble to figure out a way to confirm that text message! That was another one of my God winks, with everything lining up too perfectly to be some coincidence, with God reminding me that His invisible Presence is always with me. From texting that message to my support group early that morning (they’re sincerely helping me improve!) to taking off on that flight back home. Never one moment that God is not with us!

God. Thank You for all the love You show us all!!! May we all commit to walking closer with You at every moment. Amen!