Last night, I wanted to do some work, but after my computer was taking such a long time to boot up, I took it as God wanting me to spend some alone time with Him. I believe He had me to watch an interview with Pastor Dan Hall, the person who really brought me closer to Him. I’m here crying as I type this because my fav Pastor is now paralyzed from the neck down, and I am questioning God as to why He allowed such a terrible thing to happen. But like Pastor Hall explained, life is about how you RESPOND when bad things happen:
“How am I going to respond to being in this chair? I am going to pray that Christ (God) be exalted (glorified). That somehow in this chair, somehow in my responses and interactions, I am glorifying Him. I’m pointing people to Him.”
That’s me! I say my life is a movie that everyone is watching, and I hope that they see God in me. That even is my sad times I can brag about my God winks and how God showed up to comfort me. That in my most challenging times, He will have the perfect people to show up to assist me, or He would give me the clarity as to what direction to take to resolve it. That even when I’m down to nothing and feel my most wretched and awful self, and He sweetly says, “Give me your nothingness. Didn’t I create the entire world from nothing?” Even in my failings, he gently says, “Just do better next time.” No guilt, no condemnation, no love lost.
Even our business that I’m trying to get back on track (A HUGE CHALLENGE that has stressed me out ALOT), God has been showing up to help us. In a conversation with our manager, yesterday, I said, “We’re dancing with our Partner – God.” And he texted me back, “The DJ.” Fast forward to yesterday evening, I decided to have an appointment with God reading a page on our family’s website, werollwithgod.com. I looked around for a number to determine what page to read out of 53 pages, and saw the number 28. I go to page 28 and incredibly read this,
“… and said to God that He was my DJ (Wink! Wink!).”
That was AGAIN God’s sweet and FUN way of revealing His Presence with me when everything lined up a little bit too perfect to be some ordinary coincident. HE IS IN THE FIRES WITH US!!! This is why I’m learning that we can indeed be joyful and at peace when we go through hard times because these are the times we’re learning to RELY on God (OUR GREATEST FRIEND!). And, let me tell ya, He doesn’t disappoint!
“I told you these things so that you can have peace in me (God). In this world YOU WILL HAVE TROUBLE but be brave! I have defeated the world.” – John 16:33
I always imagine God winking at me when I read this verse! His love casts away all my fears that even when bad things happen, I know that its from the hands of a loving God who knows what’s best for us.
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I LOVE MY APPOINTMENTS WITH GOD!!!
They remind me that I’m NEVER EVER alone, not even for one moment. God finds the sweetest ways to let me KNOW that His invisible Presence in ALWAYS with me. Like yesterday afternoon, I wrote this:
“I got to work, and my manager surprisingly says, “You’re the strongest person I know! You’re the closest I’ve ever seen anyone with God.” And believe it or not, it’s these constant falls I have to thank for that. I go running to God, no shame! His love casts away my fears, worries, and stresses, little by little, AND I’M CONTINUALLY REMINDED OF WHO I AM AND, MOST IMPORTANTLY, WHOSE I AM – God’s SUPERGIRL, baby! Don’t miss out on a relationship with Him!!!”
Fast forward to this morning, in between working, I decided to go and have a little alone time with Him reading Jesus Calling, one of my fav meditation books, and look what incredibly showed up:
“When you rush, YOU FORGET WHO YOU ARE AND WHOSE YOU ARE (Wink! Wink!). Remember that you are royalty in My kingdom.”
Again, for my very words to show up, it was no coincidence, IT WAS GOD’S CONFIRMATION – NIK, YOU ARE MY SUPERGIRL!
We are all HIS SUPERPEOPLE!!! I’m just the nerdy, God maniac over here who pays attention to these LOVE NOTES from Him that are sprinkled all over the place for me to enjoy. That’s why I’m going on record to say that God and I are an ITEM – WE ARE ONE. He’s the Lover of my soul, my Partner, my Teacher, my Strategist, my Therapist, my GREATEST FRIEND, and He’s always there to help me in every aspect of my life. Are you and Him an item too (minus the you know what part!)? I want us to accept HIS love and approval, and then to share the love we receive from Him with others. Kk?!?
Then start learning His voice so that you make Him a part of everything you do. I loved another God wink recently when I was feeling overwhelmed at work. I again RUSHED to read my Jesus Calling, and God had the perfect reminder:
“We are assured and know that (God being a partner in their labor) all things work together and are (fitting into a plan) for good to and for those who love God and are called according to (His) design and purpose.” – Romans 8:28
Phew! When I read the “ASSURED AND KNOW that God being a PARTNER in their labor,” I relaxed and immediately stopped stressing, reminded that MY HELP COMES FROM THE LORD, maker of Heaven and Earth. What is too difficult for Him?
Let’s reflect Him to a watching world, shall we, especially His GOD IS LOVE character, shining His light BRIGHTLY in a dark world – Where there is hatred, let us show love! Amen!
GOD HAS BIGGER PROBLEMS TO DEAL WITH THAN YOURS!!!
Was the remark I got from someone who is sincerely trying to help me get over my constant falls with an issue I get so crazy and depressed over. I explained that the stumbles have been good for me, though, because they’ve PUSHED me directly into God’s arms, where He seems to be right there waiting on me with such love and attention as if I’m the only person in the world.
“Mom, are you having a mental breakdown?” my daughter, Julie, asked yesterday. I looked at her and immediately knew it was time for me to lock up in my bathroom and have a time-out with God. And like I said, He was there waiting for me. I decided to go to our family’s website, werollwithgod.com, to hear from Him, and believe it or not, my two most recent posts did the trick, especially this portion that I read twice:
““Brothers and sisters, think about the things that are good and worthy of praise. Think about the things that are true and honorable and right and pure and beautiful and respected.” – Philippians 4:8
In other words, Nik, STOP ALL THIS CRAZY THINKING!!! YOU HAVE SO MUCH GOOD YOU CAN FOCUS ON INSTEAD!!! The reason why I was so sure this was God was because so many times I’ve fallen in this same area, and God would figure out some way for this EXACT verse to show up, and I would just smile with Him. ‘Ok, God, I get the message, AGAIN!’ The crazy lady immediately went away.”
Phew, the crazy lady went away AGAIN, ‘Nik, you have so many positive things to focus on. But, I decided to stay a little longer asking God for a page number to go to out of our 53 pages on the site, and when I saw July 15 at the bottom, I quickly went to page 15 and look what incredibly showed up in the very top post on that page:
“…It was my Therapist (God) letting me know that He sees me, and He is with me to help me go through any situation that comes my way. Heehaw! And about these ugly, negative thoughts that plague me, He constantly reminds me of this ONE verse:
“Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things.” – Philippians 4:8 (NIV)
Yes, my Therapist! (SMILE)”
See the sweetness of God!!! For Him to take me directly there was no coincident! THE GREAT NEWS IS THAT HE IS AVAILABLE TO US ALL 24 HOURS A DAY!!! It’s up to us to develop a relationship with Him so that we have ears to hear Him, and eyes to see Him.
I got to work, and my manager surprisingly says, “You’re the strongest person I know! You’re the closest I’ve ever seen anyone with God.” And believe it or not, it’s these constant falls I have to thank for that. I go running to God, no shame! His love casts away my fears, worries, and stresses, little by little, and I’m continually reminded of who I am and, most importantly, WHOSE I AM – God’s SUPERGIRL, baby! Don’t miss out on a relationship with Him!!!
That’s the message I’m learning, and CONFIRMED by T.D. Jakes last night. It was a sermon picked by YouTube’s Autoplay, but picked by God specifically for me, entitled, ‘Trusting God When He Says NO.’ Pastor Jakes particularly got my attention when he talked about having days when he didn’t want to get out of bed when I recently entitled one of my videos, ‘I Didn’t Want To Get Out of Bed.’ LOL! So, I definitely related, and I PAID ATTENTION.
It was incredibly a sermon from five years ago but spoke directly to my life TODAY. Like in me praying (begging!!!) God to take an extremely HARD issue away from me, and He has repeatedly says, ‘Nope, Nik, I’m not!’ It’s an issue that gets me so angry and upset that God seems to bring directly to my face to deal with constantly. I say, ‘God, I did not need to know this!!!’ Pastor Jakes even brought two of my fav people in from the Bible, Jesus and the Apostle Paul, and how God told them “no” as well.
Let me tell you, I even have a picture of Jesus in my bathroom, y’all, carrying his cross because it’s my constant reminder that God has asked me to carry my cross – this very issue that keeps me so crazy, sad and depressed where I keep asking, ‘God, what is wrong with me?!?’ Even though I’ve asked God to take it away MANY times, He doesn’t, and I eventually just repeat what Jesus said, “Your will not mine be done.” Then, the Apostle Paul asked three times for a thorn to be removed from his side, but God told him “no” and said His grace was sufficient that when we are weak, His strength will come through for us.
Right after listening to the sermon, I go to have an appointment with God reading my meditation book, He and I, and can you believe God confirmed that it was a sermon picked by Him for me? As I continued reading from where I had last left off, these words showed up, “My grace is sufficient for you.” Then as I continued reading some more, Jesus’ words also miraculously appeared: “My Father—‘Your will not Mne be done.’ That was a double God wink after both of these quotes had just shown up in Pastor Jakes’ sermon.
Do you guys like how God sweetly told me, “NO.” Nik, I’m not giving you what you’ve been praying for, but I do promise that My Presence will always be here to help you deal with this situation, and my grace is sufficient for you – when you are weak, I will be your strength. And by the way, as you deal with this FRUSTRATING issue, I want you teaching others about all the hard lessons you’re learning from having to deal with it too. My response, the same as Jesus’: “My Father—‘Your will not Mine be done.’
As for those difficult lessons, Apostle Paul summed them up perfectly:
“But the Spirit produces the fruit of love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, self-control. There is no law that says these things are wrong.” – Galatians 5:22-23
And if God wants me carrying this cross, I will do so joyfully, lovingly and patiently. God, anything for You! Thanks for taking such excellent care of my family and me. Everything is between You and me, not between me and anyone else.
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‘GOD, WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?!?’
That was me questioning Him yesterday after I kept falling, upset and crazy, thinking TOO much about an issue that I keep saying I would not get upset and crazy about anymore. But here is where the sweetness of God comes in. I got in a super cleaning mode, and I know He was behind me picking up a piece of paper from my bedroom floor, where I had written this weeks ago:
“Brothers and sisters, think about the things that are good and worthy of praise. Think about the things that are true and honorable and right and pure and beautiful and respected.” – Philippians 4:8
In other words, Nik, STOP ALL THIS CRAZY THINKING!!! YOU HAVE SO MUCH GOOD YOU CAN FOCUS ON INSTEAD!!! The reason why I was so sure this was God was because so many times I’ve fallen in this same area, and God would figure out some way for this EXACT verse to show up, and I would just smile with Him. ‘Ok, God, I get the message, AGAIN!’ The crazy lady immediately went away.
Then, this showed up in my meditation book, as I sat for an alone time with Him:
“I take you as you are, with your regrets; so just be sorry. Tell Me that you will be more careful tomorrow. Don’t you think that I prefer someone who has fallen and repented to one full of pride in his good deeds? The self-righteous lose all merit. Then always be little… Get a true picture of yourself in all your weakness, without even the possibility of being good without Me. But in the distress of your poverty, look at all My riches: they are all yours. Look at my goodness and throw yourself into My arms. Look at My love without ever being afraid. I am your Savior.” – He and I
So, there I was beating up myself, and God figured out a way to get me back up without any judgement or guilt. Just that I could just be more careful next time. How sweet is that? Unlike humans who are quick to cut us off when we mess up, God LOVINGLY welcomes us to come even closer to Him, with His arms wide open to receive us.
What doesn’t kill us, makes us stronger! And your girl here is getting stronger, knowing God is with me! A depressing day ended up ultimately being a great day because God showed up to sweetly remind me that His invisible Presence is always with me, even if I fall a million times. He also gave me the proper MINDSET to tackle this issue in the future: FOCUS ON THE POSITIVES, and that even if I fall, no problem, I can just resolve to do better next time – no guilt, no judgments, no condemnation. And, CRUCIALLY, we can ALL do the same for others when they fall, being even more loving to those who hurt us. Let’s reflect God’s unconditional love, which is PATIENT AND KIND. Kk?
