So, I was on the phone with my brother, Eddie, for the longest on Sunday, and we talked about the doctor who President Trump retweeted a video of relating to the Corona Virus. However, reports of this same doctor spoke about, of all things in the world, “demon semen.” A couple of hours after the conversation with Eddie, I decided to go for a TWO-HOUR run with God saying, “God, I gotta get stronger with You.” In the middle of that run, Kodak Black’s song Halloween incredibly says this:
“I ain’t no demon’s semen (Wink! Wink!)”
That was no coincidence! It was another one of my God winks where, out of the blue, everything lines up a little bit too perfect to say that it was just some random occurrence. It was God’s fun, light, and cool way of revealing His invisible Presence with me. Letting me know that He was a part of that conversation with my brother AND He was on that run with me.
And I still can’t get over MY BIRTHDAY RUN God wink, where I was feeling so stressed and frustrated that I stopped in the middle of that jog to say, “God, I need to hear from you!” and of all my meditation books and of all the pages for me to read, this showed up:
“Can’t you say ON YOUR BIRTHDAY (Wink! Wink!), ‘Everything in me is You, Lord, except sin’? Be full of joy…” – He and I
This, honestly, gives me every reason to be full of joy – the Creator of the entire universe knows my birthday, and He is intimately involved in every moment, every conversation and EVERYTHING concerning little old me! And the GREAT NEWS is that He is always with you, too. That’s my job from Him that He has asked of me to tell you so, that you would begin to learn His funny, cool, loving and lighthearted personality.
Yesterday, in being upset, I go to have an appointment with Him, and He sweetly says, “Nik, My grace (His help, love, and support) is sufficient.” Therefore, I can keep my eyes fixed on Him and not the broken, fallen world around me. I can keep going JOYFULLY on my life’s journey with God, holding on to His hand SUPER TIGHT, being obedient to what He would have me to do, what He would have me to say (or NOT to say!!!) and going where He would have me to go. KNOWING this is how He guides me on the path to the best life with Him. Amen!
“I WILL NOT BE SHAKEN FOR I HOLD ON TO THE ONE WHO IS BIGGER THAN MY FEARS.”
DON’T MISS OUT ON AN OPPORTUNITY TO BETTER YOURSELF
That was the message from Coach Bennet on my run with him yesterday, so I’m joining my daughter, Julie, in a never-ending quest of self-improvement! My 50 days of discipline are back, baby, where I aim to stick with these goals (as perfectly as possible!):
– Be joyful
– Wake up at 5:30 am
– Sleep by 10 pm
– Spend 24 hours with God
– Talk less
– No sweets, dairy, fried or fast foods
– No negative thinking
– Fasting from noon to 5 pm
– Exercise 35 minutes
– LEAVE COMFORT ZONE
God had some more to say to me about the TALK LESS part last night when this showed up in my appointment with Him:
“Any words at all… you can say them to Me (God). But with others, GET TO LOVE SILENCE. I mean by that a silence of goodness. You will find me there, I shall hear all the words that you don’t say. You will keep them for Me, for My sake. You will ask Me for the strength, and these silences will be like cut flowers. I’ll offer them to Myself in a bouquet. Right now would you like to begin this silence with others, this silence that will speak so eloquently to My love? I ask you for this new way of pleasing Me. I need all your ways. How could I not want your entire being when I know that you are free.” – He and I
God said that when I’m ready, He will BEGIN teaching me some lessons in love, and this holding back of words has been a super hard one. It’s another way of showing respect to others by holding back some words. God said we can say anything to Him, but with others lets offer the unsaid, hurtful, belittling, and embarrassing words to God as a gift to Him.
Honestly, someone said this to me, lately, “Nikki, you talk too much!” I agree! Let’s be mindful of what we say and make God proud of us. Kk?!? May God give us the strength to do so. Amen!
“Pleasant words are like honeycomb, sweet to the soul and healing to the bones.” – Proverbs 16:24
I can’t get over God and how He shows me such deep love and attention. Like yesterday, in the middle of a BIRTHDAY run, I stopped to ask Him what is wrong with me and why I’m still struggling with such sad and depressing thoughts. I opened my electronic book reader on my phone and continued from exactly where I had last left off reading, and this amazingly showed up:
“Can’t you say ON YOUR BIRTHDAY (Wink! Wink!), ‘Everything in me is You, Lord, except sin’? Be full of joy…” – He and I
And once again, that lined up too perfectly to be some ordinary coincidence. God, the Creator of the entire Universe, KNOWS my birthday. Can you guys believe that? He had that all perfectly lined up to remind me of His deep love for me. Of all my meditation books, of all pages!
“What is mankind that you are mindful of them, human beings that you care for them?” – Psalm 8:4
Where I go wrong is that I forget who I am and whose I am – I’m God’s girl!!! And my life is a journey with Him. He has brought me to a new season, and I have to make the most of where I am now, not thinking about the past or the future, but simply making the most of the PRESENT and every day with Him, enjoying His company, and FULL OF JOY.
A special thanks to my sister-in-law, Aima, her husband, Sandy, and their daughters, Tomi and Toluwa, who threw me a fantastic party with the most delicious foods. I felt so LOVED. Like I always say, God EXCEEDS my expectations. He gives me more than I can ever ask or imagine. Ask me how I’m doing… I’m BLESSED!!!
Don’t miss out on the best life with God, where every day feels like a birthday celebration. Make space in your life to have appointments with Him, where you learn His voice to guide you on the path to the best experiences. My fav meditation books where I hear from Him are Jesus Calling by Sarah Young, He and I by Gabrielle Bossis, The Bible (You Version App on my phone), and my book, ‘Keep Calm, You’re Rolling with God.’ They say you write the book you need to read, and that’s definitely the case here. I still haven’t mastered the hard lessons I wrote about! Not one moment spent with God has been wasted! What time will your alone times with Him be? Let’s get STRONGER in the LORD!
I asked myself when I started receiving all these letters in the mail. It was with news that seemed too good to be true. I kept saying I would call and find out why, but Ms. Procrastinator here never did. Then an email came with some more great news, and at the point, I had to call and see what was happening. I thought all these bad things that might have went wrong and how it would be so much trouble to rectify. Totally stressing out. But, I used the time on hold to have an appointment with God, and I read this:
“I no longer think worst-case scenarios, I think the best case.”
Suddenly I was reminded that I’m rolling with God, and with Him on my side I CAN THINK BEST CASE SCENARIOS IN EVERY ASPECT OF MY LIFE. Woohoo! Like 30 minutes later, a representative came on the phone and explained that everything was good and there was nothing to be concerned about. Phew!But that experience was such an essential reminder for everything I have going on at the moment – Nik, you’re trusting in God, remember! Like that post said, How God does what He does is NONE OF OUR BUSINESS!! Instead of worrying, I can use struggles as opportunities to TRUST GOD MORE. And He hasn’t let me down yet. People may disappoint us, but God doesn’t. He always EXCEEDS our expectations! Doesn’t He? Even when things don’t work out according to my plan, I’m OK, because God’s plans are far better. He knows the experiences I need to become the happy, joyful, peaceful, brave, courageous, loving, mature person He would have me to be. “My God may kill me, but yet I will trust Him.”
And He shows up in the sweetest ways. Like after writing in my last post, that I feel God lovingly says, “FORGET THE FORMER THINGS. I’M DOING A NEW THING!” I go into my office, and there has been a calendar on the wall for an entire year that has been stuck on the same August 2019. But yesterday, for some reason, I go to look at the other months, and for January, it incredibly said, “I AM MAKING EVERYTHING NEW.” Wink! Wink! Once again, everything lined up a little bit too perfect to be some ordinary coincident. It was God’s loving way of reminding me that HIS invisible Presence is always with me. This gives me even more confidence to always expect BEST CASE Scenarios – MY GOD IS WITH ME.
I’m claiming that message for us all – God is making everything new! Let’s keep our eyes fixed on Him as we do our best in the physical realm while we trust God is working in the spiritual realm on our behalf. How He does what He does is NONE OF OUR BUSINESS. Wink! Wink! My hope is in God, baby!!!
That’s my testimony! Like yesterday was such a down day for me. I couldn’t wait to finally get to bed and hang out with God for on our family’s website, werollwithgod.com. That’s where I go to rest on His chest for a little bit when the world gets a little bit too much for me.
I ended up rereading an old post about the song ‘My Hitta’ that was a God wink months ago. Around 2 am, I had debated with my husband as to which one was better, LOVE OR LOYALTY. After another call later on that morning, though, I said to him, “This wife LOVES AND IS LOYAL to you. Ride or die chick forever!’ I go to turn on some music on my speaker minutes after that last conversation with him, and astonishingly this was the song playing, and it said, “I have two words for you: LOVE AND LOYALTY (Wink! Wink!)”
But here’s the sweetness of God. Can you believe my daughter comes into our bathroom playing some loud music (takes after her mom!), puts her phone on shuffle, allowing God to be her DJ, and of all the songs in the world, she ended up playing this very song, ‘My Hitta’ that I had just read about minutes before. No coincidence! This was AGAIN God’s loving way of revealing His invisible Presence with us.
And that’s the love I want us going through life COURAGEOUSLY with, not trying to get our love and approval from other people who can flip flop and change on us from one moment to the next. I want us getting so close to God, that even when others hurt or reject us, we can shake off the disappointments and keep our eyes on HIM being the loving and forgiving people He would have us to be AS WELL AS SUCKING IN ALL OF HIS LOVE AND APPROVAL.
And not be too hard on ourselves, either. To love and forgive ourselves when we’re not the people we would like to be. I had such a great run with Coach Cory from the Nike Running Clup app who reminded me that every run I’m getting a little bit better, as I aim to work on some negative struggles pulling me down. I needed that reminder. I took it as another message from God to the Nik here who is always beating up herself.
Every day we get to do a reset and begin again knowing we have God helping us to become the best versions of ourselves. No judgment. No condemnation. No guilt. He lovingly says, “FORGET THE FORMER THINGS. I’M DOING A NEW THING!” His love is not like any human love, its unconditional, and everlasting. But don’t take my word for it! Say this prayer with me, ‘God, I would like a closer walk with You.’ Amen.
