FEELING LIKE GOD’S BAD BITCH
So, I went out on a long run with Him today to discuss whether or not to continue my postings with my videos and blogs, given everything I have going on right now. Almost at the end of the run, feeling all hyped up and strong, I said to Him, ‘I’m telling everyone that I’m the definition of a BAD BITCH, so what the heck, the videos, and blog continue. AT THAT VERY MOMENT (no lie!), I was listening to the song Ballin, and the lyrics unbelievably says, “Got a BAD BITCH.” Wink! Wink! And I took it, of course, as one of my God winks where everything lines up a little bit too perfect to be a regular coincident, it was God Himself confirming, ‘Yes, Nik, you are My bad bitch!’
That goes for us all! I know it’s a scary time, but we have to see ourselves as unafraid, bold, heroic, brave, courageous, tough, strong, unflinching, confident, fierce, handling our business kind of people KNOWING GOD HIMSELF IS BACKING US UP. No time for playing weak, poor old me, victims, no, we’re soldiers for God doing our thing for our families, communities, and our world. Amen!
But at the same time, we’re also soft:
“God is love, and he that dwelleth in love dwelleth in God, and God in him.” – 1 John 4:16
Which is sometimes the hardest part, let me tell ya. That’s when the real badness comes out when we can let go of the hurts, disappointments, distresses, failures, mistakes, and pain and be the heroic, staying on the high road, loving, forgiving, nonjudgmental, gentle, faithful, and humble bad people God asks us to be. Not conforming to the world or what anyone else expects of us but simply keeping our lives intertwined with God constantly asking Him, “What would You have me to do here?”
“Don’t lose your grip on Love and Loyalty.
Tie them around your neck; carve their initials on your heart.
Earn a reputation for living well
in God’s eyes and the eyes of the people.
Trust God from the bottom of your heart;
don’t try to figure out everything on your own.
Listen for God’s voice in everything you do, everywhere you go;
he’s the one who will keep you on track.” – Proverbs 3:3-6
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MARRIAGE AND SINGLE MATTERS
Check out my Youtube video for today:
LIVE IN GOD, LIVE IN LOVE
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HEALTH MATTERS
No sweets for three weeks!
Starting tomorrow! Care to join me and my sister, Patrice, on our journey of never ending self improvement? Coming out of the quaratined better people, all for God’s glory!
“Let food be thy medicine!”
“YOU WILL THANK ME ONCE YOU DO THIS”
That’s was me to a friend recently. She replied, “No, Nikki, why does it have to be me. I’m standing my ground. I’m NOT doing it.” I asked her, “What would make God happy here? He is the one protecting our families during this Coronavirus situation. Can you do this for Him? Everything is between Him and us, remember.” But, just like me, my friend is pretty stubborn, and again she said, “Nikki, no. Not this time.” Fast forward a day later, she calls me so happy saying, “Nikki, thank you for the advice. I finally did what you said.”
And that’s my experience with God. When I operate from the perspective of, ‘God, what would You have me to do here?’ things work out so much better than I can imagine. God has been my awesome Guide. (SMILE)
It hasn’t been easy, though. The crazy lady wants to make an appearance, but I’ve learned to catch myself and go to God when these negative emotions want to get the best of me. He lovingly says, ‘Take out all your frustrations on Me. Tell Me everything that is upsetting you, and let’s discuss the best way forward TOGETHER.’ I open up my meditation books, read some old posts or watch one of my terrible videos (from a saner Nikki) and I then know what God would have me to do: Nik, shine bright. Reflect Me to a watching world going the extra mile in love and faith in Me.
God again showed up for me yesterday when I shared these verses with my daughter, Julie:
“Trust in the Lord with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding;
in all your ways acknowledge him,
and he will make your paths straight.” – Proverbs 3:5-6_
Right after that I did a video repeating the verses. Then fast forward a few hours when I was feeling overwhelmed, they showed up again in an alone time with God. Minutes later, I asked (more like forced!) my daughter, Ember, to have an appointment with God with me, she picked Day 94 of 366 devotionals from my book that incredibly began:
“IN ALL YOUR WAYS ACKNOWLEDGE HIM”
I’m in love with these Bible verses: _
“Lean on, trust in, and be confident in the Lord with all your heart and mind and do not rely on your own insight or understanding. In all your ways know, recognize, and acknowledge Him, and He will direct and make straight and plain your paths” (Proverbs 3:5-6).”
Wink! Wink! I gave Ember the biggest hug feeling she picked the very number God Himself wanted me to read and let me know that His invisble Presence is always with me. Forget about it! I’m inviting Him into every moment of my life. Even the messy, difficult, and challenging ones always asking, ‘God, what would You have me to do here?’ That’s how He guides me to a joyful, peaceful, and successful life as I trust in Him. Amen.
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MARRIAGE AND SINGLE MATTERS
GOD TURNED MY WEEPING TO JOY
LIVE IN GOD, LIVE IN LOVE
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HEALTH MATTERS
I’m thanking God for my runs every day with Him. No alcohol, no drugs, but lots of God helped me through this one!
“Let food be thy medicine!”
FORGIVENESS
What I have to say about this whole situation right now
BETTER THAN I USED TO BE
GOD, I’M SO ASHAMED
‘God, what is wrong with me? I should be better than this.’ That was me to Him yesterday evening, again sitting in my closet/office having an alone time with Him. I felt embarrassed about holding on to a hurt for a little too long that I kept crying to Him about, feeling so silly.
Fast forward a few hours later, He replied through Dr. Wayne Dyer when he quoted this Rumi poem:
“The Water said to the dirty one, “Come here.”The dirty one said, “I am too ashamed.”The water replied, “How will your shame be washed away without me?”
Dr. Dyer explained that the “Water” represents God, and it is Him saying, “How will your shame be washed away without me. In other words, the only way you can get rid of the stuff that’s not working for you, the pain that you have, the struggle you have, is when you go to your Source.”
See how God comes and stoops to our level once we invite Him to be apart of our lives. Like He just came and sat with me, “Nik, I’m the water that washes away all your dirt. You coming to me in your painful and struggling moments is how we get rid of them together. I’m the best option to help you with those things.”
My meditation book, Jesus As Friend, also had this to say to me:
“And not just accepting the humiliation, but loving it – loving our own wretchedness and thanking the Lord for letting us really know ourselves… the goodness and Providence of God want us there so we mature and become more united to Him.”
This is exactly what has happened. I got an opportunity to examine some craziness I’ve been dealing with for a long time now, and most importantly, it got me closer to God as He helped me to mature and become the Nik He would have me to be. Heehaw! Thanks, Water! I feel like David in Psalm 73:“When I was beleaguered and bitter,
totally consumed by envy,
I was totally ignorant, a dumb ox
in your very presence.
I’m still in your presence,
but you’ve taken my hand.
You wisely and tenderly lead me,and then you bless me.”
Thank You, God, once again for Your guidance and for being the water that washes away all our dirt and help us to become better. Amen.
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A GREAT GOOD FRIDAY
‘Ok, God. Enough. I’m tired of feeling sad. Help me out here.’ That was me on Good Friday, locking myself up in an office/closet to have some quiet time with Him. And let me tell ya, He showed up. There was a chapter in one of my meditation books about the crosses God asks us to continue carrying from Jesus:
“What then will the cross be for us? Look: what do you find most difficult in your everyday life? Well, that’s the Redeemer’s cross for you. Those tough temptations you meet, your ill health, your heavy demanding work, the defects of the people among whom you live, WHO HURT YOU…. Have supernatural outlook! All this, for you, is the cross of Christ…Carry it joyfully, lovingly. Carry it generously and you will learn to hide it from those around you, as you would hide a treasure. Hide it behind a generous smile and you will discover in the depths of your soul, what our Lord’s words mean when he says, ‘My yoke is easy and my burden is light’ (Mt 11:30); for he, the good Cyrenean of souls will help you carry it.” – Jesus As Friend by Salvatore Canals
Reading those three words, “Who hurt you,” was God speaking to me. I then looked up from that book to see the picture I’m holding in my hands of Jesus carrying his cross, and I instantly got the message: Nik, this hurt is the cross I’m asking you to carry for me. I brought this picture of Jesus all the way from Nigeria and I had placed it in this office/closet as a constant reminder that I’m going to joyously continue carrying the cross from Jesus. And on Good Friday, when, historically, Jesus carried his cross thousands of yeas ago, God was personally asking me to carry this one. No problem, God, anything for You. I will happily and joyously carry it. Especially after talking to my brother who said my cross is nothing compared to the crosses others have to carry. I’ll take my spec of a cross any day any time! (SMILE) What’s your cross?
What made it a great Good Friday though was calling my sister in the Bahamas earlier that day to vent to her. She was just talking to her son about a book, ‘Man’s Search For Meaning,’ by Victor Frankl, but hung up from him to talk to me. We ended up talking about the book as well about how he believed that we can find beauty in any situation we find ourselves. I told her maybe I need to read it. Fast forward to that evening, my mom asked to listen to Wayne Dyer’s podcast and exactly where we continued playing from where we had last left over, out of hundreds of episodes, this very one was about this very book, ‘A Man’s Search For Meaning,’ and him meeting Mr. Frankl years ago. Wink! Wink!
This again lined up too perfectly to just be some regular coincident. It was another one of my God winks where he orchestrated this entire thing to let His girl here know He was with her and to let you know, too, His Presence is with all of us. I’m just the God maniac here who pays attention. Relax…