“NIKKI, WHAT ARE YOU EATING???”

This was my hubby SCREAMING at his FAT wife from across the room at a party some years ago. Can you believe this was one of those life-changing moments when I decided to work on myself seriously? The then overweight, insecure, overly emotional, unhappy, and unhealthy Nik, used this HUMILIATION as fuel to become BETTER. …

“MOMMY, WHY DID DADDY MAKE YOU CRY?”

That was the crucial question one of these beautiful daughters asked me years ago after I had an emotional breakdown in front of them when my husband fussed me out about my weight one Sunday I will never forget. That was my wake up call. Nik, are you going to let your daughters see you …

GOD FREAKS ME OUT, AGAIN! So today, I’m thinking about how God changes all my BAD stuff to such GOOD. Like, I would RUN to Him complaining about my little life drama’s, ‘God, why me?!?’ He must laugh at me a lot because afterward, I’m then THANKING Him for the experiences! Go figure! Even with …

“I’M NOT COMING WITH YOU!!!” (REPOST)

That was me to a very persistent person a short while ago. And I thought I was the persistent one! LOL! We had a great time hanging out on my bleisure (business/leisure) time here in Florida away from hubby and the kids. And even though I’m far from them, I feel so amazing that God …

“I WANT TO JOIN YOU!!!”

I excitedly told a friend concerning fasting for Ramadan. That ONE decision has changed my life DRAMATICALLY, and I astonishingly see God’s hands ALL over it! As I was running out to an event at my kids’ school, the zipper on my dress popped open. Aye Carumba! I had to rush and quickly put together …

I’VE SPENT TWO DAYS COMPLETELY AGITATED I’VE SPENT TWO DAYS COMPLETELY AGITATED That’s how it be sometimes, my peeps! Not every day is all jolly jolly, but I’ve come through those days a new person: KNOWING my God is with me. It’s no more ”as if” God is real; It’s GOD IS REAL and His …

‘GOD, I’M VERY ANGRY RIGHT NOW!’

That was me running to Him for some alone time in a very upsetting morning. The crazy lady had come out in full force, and I needed some quiet minutes with Him. I opened up a book entitled ‘Goodness’ and there I amazingly found the perfect message from God: “Do not be overcome by evil, …

EVEN WHEN I PEE PEE GOD IS WITH ME

I have these meditation books in our bathroom to encourage my hubby to have appointments with God and late last night before going to bed, I felt I needed some time alone with Him reading my Jesus Calling Morning and Evening devotional by Sarah Young. That morning, I had received a beautiful WhatsApp message from …

“WE CAME TO LEARN MESSY LOVE” (REPOST)

Was my message to a friend one Monday after she had an unexpected visitor showed up at her house. I shared with her a post I love from Tumblr.com: “Dear Human: You’ve got it all wrong. You didn’t come here to master unconditional love. That is where you came from and where you’ll return. You came …