‘I’M SO INTO YOU’

That’s not only God singing to me but to us all!!! The most intricate details of our lives, God is in the midst! He blows me away with His love and attention!

Like I went to Him crying one day, feeling hurt. That morning, for my appointment with God, I read Exodus 14:14, and in that sad moment, I felt God saying to listen to Ceri’s latest message. Ceri astonishingly continued reading Exodus 14:15-16 saying this:

“Why are you crying out to me (exactly me in that moment!)? Tell the Israelites to get up and get moving.”

The way that lined up so perfectly from me reading the previous verse, I felt God saying it was time for me to leave Nigeria and go back to the US. Ceri wasn’t even supposed to speak that day but described how he felt a pull from God to share those verses. Saying he didn’t know who they were for, but God pushed him to speak.

I get back to the US, and in another recording, Ceri spoke about Rocky mode and trusting the process. I jumped on that, deciding I needed to get out of my comfort zone, and I decided to complete a 5K run every day for 50 days – Rocky mode as if I was preparing for a big upcoming fight.

Now that I’m back in Nigeria, I see the difference between the Nikki who was crying and listening to that message from Ceri that morning. That Nik had to go for this new Nik to emerge – God’s girl first and foremost. The fretful, worried, sad, depressed, hurt, overwhelmed, frustrated Nik has been replaced by a faith-filled, confident, secure in God, brave, courageous, happy, joyful, and fearless Nik. Heehaw!

That’s why I said that God is so into all of us. He knew I needed that little wilderness experience in the US, running those 5Ks as my alone times with Him to tackle everything going on in my head and, most crucially, bring me closer to Him (HUGE SMILE). I’m leaning more on God than ever before! Today, the prayer with hubby is again just saying thank You to God because no matter how bad we may look at a situation, we must never forget it could be so much worse.

Moral of the story: Get to know God’s voice so you can feel His intimate direction for your life. See how I got the feeling to listen to that specific message from Ceri and how I knew it was God telling me to leave. Then again, to begin the 5K runs. I prayed the most important prayer of my life about 15 years ago: God, I want a closer walk with You. And the way I’ve learned His voice has been the most beautiful thing. Just one sentence in my meditation book made my day today from Him:

“The one thing you absolutely need is the one thing you can never lose: My Presence with you (Wink! Wink!).” – Jesus Calling

God, may the entire world come to know Your love! Amen!

“I’M HAPPY TO HAVE MY WIFE HERE WITH ME”

That was my hubby to me yesterday, and I’m so overwhelmingly thrilled and grateful to be here with him as well. But I can’t get over how God figures out these sweet ways to reveal glimmers of HIS PRESENCE HERE WITH US. Like the first night I arrived, I said let’s say a prayer together with hubby and our sons. I got on my knees next to our bed, but my son, Joshie said, “I don’t need to get on my knees because God doesn’t care what position I’m in.” I go to read an appointment with God in our Jesus Calling Devotional for Kids from where my son, Emmie, had left off, and this incredibly showed up (written as if God was speaking directly to us CONFIRMING EXACTLY WHAT JOSHIE HAD JUST SAID):

“I don’t care about the position of your body—I care about the position of your heart.”

Wow! That blew the God maniac here away! That lined up extremely too perfectly to be some ordinary coincidence for that book to so specifically confirm what Joshie had just said like 5 minutes before reading this. That’s the love of God I want you guys to know and experience for yourself! Our God is always with us!!!! Its just for us to have ears to hear Him and eyes to see Him!

Then, today, I got the feeling from Him to read post 86 in my book. Honestly, I didn’t get why He wanted me to go there, but after hanging up from a phone call about an hour later, an old post suddenly appeared on my phone from our family’s website, and I got the nudge from God to read it. It incredibly mentioned the book, The Happy Family, and can you believe this was the exact book I mentioned in that post number 86 in my book. Again, it was God’s sweet way of letting me know that His invisible Presence is always with me and that I handle nothing alone. God Himself is in the storms, fires, and struggles of our lives. Here’s what that old post said:

“GOD SHOWS UP AGAIN TO REVEAL HIS PRESENCE WITH US (HUGE SMILE)

This is another one of my God winks, where everything lines ENORMOUSLY TOO PERFECT to be considered an ordinary coincidence. This one started yesterday morning in a conversation with a friend about her marriage. I kept telling her that she had to set the tone for the house, being her most loving self, going the extra mile, and staying on the high road with God, no matter what her husband was doing. Then, by her showing up with that spirit, her husband would be motivated to change. She should do her best and leave the rest with God because nothing was too difficult for Him. No matter how terrible the situation may seem, she should keep giving her best for God.

Fast forward about an hour later, I randomly opened my meditation book of Bible verses, and God confirmed what I said when this was the very first verse that I opened DIRECTLY to:

“Wives, likewise, be submissive to your own husbands, that even if some do not obey the word, they, without a word, may be won by the conduct of their wives. – 1 Peter 3:1

I immediately sent a pic to my friend and called her. But she freaked me out when she told me that she had just read the same thing five minutes before. I told her I didn’t believe her and that she should send me a picture of what she had read. She sent this:

“If matters of conscience come up, an unbelieving husband is more likely to respect his wife’s position if it is presented with a “mild temper and deep respect.” Some unbelieving husbands have been won through the conduct of their wives (Wink! Wink!), because of having been eyewitnesses of (their) chaste conduct together with deep respect.” — 1 Peter 3:1” – The Happy Family

Wow! The love of God in action! See how He is so deeply and personally involved in our lives! How could this be some mere coincidence? For me to open this book of over 300 pages of Bible verses and read THAT specific one first, then to call my friend back saying this is God’s marching orders to us, for her to tell me in an entirely different book this same message from 1 Peter 3:1 showed up only 5 minutes before, was completely and totally orchestrated by God to make us ALL aware of His invisible Presence with us. It brought such great comfort to my friend, letting her know that God was there with her, helping her to fight and stay strong for her family.”

Our families sticking together is important to God! Make sure you are having your alone times with Him! These glimmers of His Presence give me joy, courage, and strength to be the person, wife, and mom God Himself would have me be. This life is too hard to do on our own! God knows the beginning, middle, and end, and He is involved in every aspect of our lives, but we must take the time to seek His face and ask for His help and guidance. Don’t miss out on a life close to God!

“YOU KNOW WE HAVE A BAD REPUTATION”

That was me to my daughter, Ember, a short while ago. Julie said that if you look up spoilt in the dictionary, you would see a picture of the two of us holding hands. She is my daughter, for sure! But honestly, it’s the love of God and my husband (her dad) that spoil us. (HUGE SMILE). Like I can’t get over how God showed up for me yesterday. At exactly 10:51, I sent our family friend, Ceri, a message saying this is our message from God to teach the world:

“Loving unconditionally and making allowances for others”

Precisely 44 minutes later, I was at a park where I run, and looking for a cool spot to sit down and have my alone time with God, I walk directly to a book that someone left behind incredibly entitled:

‘Beautiful Mercy: Experiencing God’s Unconditional Love So We Can Share It With Others’ (Wink! Wink!)

And that was another one of my famous God winks with God lovingly planting that book there for His fav and spoilt girl here – me!!!! That lined up extremely too perfectly, IT WAS ALL GOD revealing His invisible presence with us! No way this was some ordinary coincidence for me to type those words to Ceri about loving unconditionally and for that book, of all the books in the world, to be left there about that topic.

This is the love that I want us all to experience from Him so that we can live our lives joyfully, knowing He is by our side through everything we go through! Yes, we must endure some HARD THINGS (our crosses), but we do it all for His glory. Running to listen to another message from Ceri today, his advice was to keep forgiving. This forgiveness thing is truly for us so we don’t have to go through life unhappy, bitter, and frustrated. You just accept that it is what it is like Donald trump wonderfully taught us and hand everyone over to God – Let go and let God – as we keep being His representatives in the world, loving unconditionally, and STRONG AND COURAGEOUS. I’m bragging to my support group now, telling them to watch me, superman! As God’s influencer, I have to show you guys how we do! OUR GOD IS WITH US, BABY! Wink! Wink!

WOW! WOW! WOW!

God speaks clearly to me through our family friend, Ceri! The other day, I was under my God tree, and my friend Marcie asked me, “Have you left your husband yet?” I explained to her that I was not leaving him and was his ride-or-die wife. That I’m God’s representative, and I’m sticking with my husband, even if that means being the poster child of a wife sticking with her husband despite all the messiness involved. That I will love my husband up. Show him a lot of mercy and grace because none of us are perfect, and keep loving and supporting him the same way he has lovingly done for me. Even though the world might tell me the complete opposite, I follow what I feel God is calling me to do: Give my husband grace and mercy and even go as far as not discussing the issue again by being extremely gentle and patient.

Fast forward a few minutes later, I saw the date Feb 11 and felt God saying to go to Ceri’s message of Feb 11 on the Clubhouse app, where I go to stalk him and record his messages. Incredibly, Ceri confirmed what I had just told Marcie:

“… You got to be kind. It reverts back to what they said Paul said in this verse. He says to make allowance for everyone for each other’s faults and forgive anyone who offends you. When you make allowance for something, you prepare yourself that people will fail you. Ain’t nobody perfect. And even when people mess up, you must give them that Grace.

Remember now, we cannot keep asking God for grace and mercy when we don’t extend His hand to each other. Whatever it is that God gives us, he provides us with the opportunity to reflect that onto our fellow man. Hence, he told us he made us in his own image. What He’s given to us, we have the opportunity to give to other people. Every day we see the love that God has given us. From the moment we woke up and have our eyes open, we now have the opportunity and the ability to Grace others with what God has been so gracious with us. God helped us to wake up to see another day. He shows us love continuously. He is telling us once we wake up, ‘Hey, that’s what I did for you, now go out there and do for others.’ And forgiveness is one of those things.

Remember, it’s something that I always used to preach in here from when I first started preaching in this room. Forgiveness is something that God gave to you. He gave that to you. Forgiveness is for us. Nobody cares if you forgive them or not. Trust me on this one. Nobody cares. The only person to be affected by you not forgiving somebody is you. You’re going to walk around with a spiteful heart. You will walk around with hate in your eyes. You will be having sleepless nights because there’s something this person did to you that has you upset. You think they care? They don’t care because they can continuously run into the same problems over and over. They can keep running into people who either forgive them or who don’t. You think that like they are going to stop at you? Nah. It just doesn’t work that way.

The forgiveness is for us. The forgiveness is for us to say, ‘Hey, you know I forgive you. You don’t do it because we want God to forgive us. That isn’t just the reason. You have to honestly search deep down inside you and realize that whatever this is, I am bigger than this. I’m not gonna let this consume me. This isn’t a part of me. This isn’t me. This isn’t what I’m going to focus on. I need to focus on the word of God. I need to focus on loving other people. I need to devote my energy to something more important than what it is that this person did to me. And that’s just what it is. So today, let’s remember to go out there with exactly what God asked us to do in these verses when He asks us to clothe ourselves with mercy, kindness, humility, gentleness, and patience. Whatever you do or say, do it as a representative of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks through him to God our Father.”

I can’t get over how God had me to go to that specific message of Ceri’s for Feb 11 that has drastically changed my life. I feel so loved by God that He would go to this extent to reveal His Presence with our family, confirming I must continue giving my husband grace and mercy, the same he does for me. I told him today that I never want to discuss this issue (infidelity) again because it has only been a total distraction to our family. Honestly, my hubby has been loyal, devoted, reliable, trustworthy, and steady and deserves our deep respect, love, and appreciation. I said we need to recalibrate from exactly where we are and keep our eyes on the prize God has in store for us. As Ceri said, the thing has consumed and distracted us too much. The setback, though, will be our set-up for an even stronger comeback, by the grace of God! Time to refocus on Him and His plans for our family!

We can’t change anyone! People have to want to change on their own, but in the meantime, WE MUST MAKE ALLOWANCES FOR THE WEAKNESSES OF OTHERS, GRANTING MERCY AND PATIENCE as GOD DOES FOR US BECAUSE NONE OF US ARE PERFECT. LETTING GO AND LETTING GOD. Amen!

“I’M FEELING FREAKY DEAKY”

That was me singing and dancing out on my run today (in the pic!) with Tyga and Doja Cat. Honestly, it was a struggle to complete my 3.11 miles. Still, it was the perfect struggle as I got to spend extra time with God, asking Him to help me wrap my head around the stuff going on in my life. And He did! Here’s what I felt Him saying to me through various songs and my reading and listening to old posts and videos:

Nik, be on chill mode; not taking anything too seriously, girl. ‘I’m trying to hear all your problems so I can lighten the load. No, you not fighting alone ‘cause I’m protectin’ you from them (So chill).’ – On Chill, Wale

Nik, time to get back into Tom Brady (greatest athlete) mode! Doing everything for My glory! I want you to shine even brighter than ever, aiming to be the most extraordinary person, wife, and mom on My behalf. Reflect Me! What you eat, drink, do; everything for Me. — Told y’all! I’m God’s official influencer, baby!

Nik, Look around you. Look at your life. Enjoy it, My girl! The spec of a cross I’ve asked you to carry for Me, I want you to accept it joyfully, lovingly, hide it behind a beautiful smile! Be my representative in the world. Inspire! — Yes, Boss! Watch me, Superman!

Nik, you must make allowances for the weaknesses of others. Keep forgiving. Keep loving extravagantly. Be the glue keeping your family and home together peacefully, happily, and lovingly. Pretend you don’t see what you see or hear what you hear. Leave the past in the past. Tie love and loyalty around your neck! Keep silent and vent all your frustrations to me. I got you, boo!

Nik, stop being a baby-face whiner! Suck it up, buttercup! My grace is sufficient to help you tackle any problem or situation. Keep your eyes on me, and I’ll direct you on the best paths for your life, moment by moment, step by step. Take life one day at a time.

Nik, “I can’t get enough of your love. How can I explain all the things I feel? You’ve given me so much. Girl, you’re so unreal, still. I keep loving you. More and more each time. Girl, what am gonna do? Because you’re blowin’ My mind. Can’t get enough of your love (And I sing these lyrics right back to Him!).” – Can’t Get Enough of Your Love, Barry White

Make sure you’re having your alone times with God! This life is too hard! We need His wisdom and guidance! I don’t want to be alone singing and happy dancing in the streets! MAKE GOD YOUR LIFE PARTNER, knowing He is with you 24/7, loving, supporting, protecting, guiding, and helping you! His invisible Presence is ALWAYS with us. Any problem in any aspect of your life, He can help you with that! Wink! Wink! But you must spend time getting to know Him and learn His voice! These runs are my time to hash out anything bothering me with Him. Throughout the day, I also read or listen to the spiritual stuff that keeps me focused on God and not this crazy world.

TURNING ROLLING WITH GOD INTO A LIFESTYLE, BABY!

I want everyone here with me where we are living, moving, and having our entire being in God all day, every day. From one moment to the next, asking God what He would have us do (or not do!), what He would have us say (or not say!), where He would have us go (or not go!), and even what He would have us think (or not think!). Yes, wrapped up with God in every moment!

I called my brother, Kevin, thanking him again for allowing me to lean on him for the past few years – everyone needs someone to lean on! I promise you, he gives me direct messages from God. Like the day he told me not to stop running. There I was running every day like a crazy person (my mom still laughs at me about that!), but that time to spend with God and hash everything I was going through with Him, was PRICELESS! LIFE IS A WAR, and God is an expert in everything! The time running built me up spiritually, emotionally, and physically, and I’m learning to discern quite clearly God’s directions. I may not always get it right, but I keep at it! No drugs or alcohol are needed to cope (which leads us down dark paths); I throw on my exercise clothes and sneakers as soon as I get up, and this spiritual practice of running with God has been carrying your girl through her rough patch. No shame; I NEED GOD!

In the middle of the runs, I take time to see what God has to say to me, LEARNING AND STUDYING HIS GUIDING PRINCIPLES FOR MY LIFE. I read our family’s website, and today I had a great time listening to Ceri’s messages. I especially felt God was talking to me through him saying I needed to hand over some silly battles to God and stop stressing about them. That I should do like God is a manager who I refer difficult problems to, trusting God to handle tough battles while I go on with my life. This particular one, I felt God saying I even never have to speak of it again, simply leave it in God’s capable hands. Allowing God to be God by showing up strong on my behalf! GOD, ALL MY TRUST IS IN YOU!

Are you making rolling with God your lifestyle? God helps us to take on our lives skillfully and calmly. People will hurt, disappoint, and frustrate us, but God always exceeds our expectations when we stick with Him. Every concern of ours is a concern of His! He is just waiting like a shy person for you to invite Him in and be a part of every move and decision you make. Don’t miss out on the best life, KNOWING THE CREATOR OF THE ENTIRE UNIVERSE IS WITH AND FOR YOU! Tell Him you want to roll with Him 24/7!

I’M A BIG DEAL NOW!!!

Heehaw!!! You know how I always call myself God’s Rockstar and how I’m His influencer in the world? Well, God went through the trouble to make it official, baby! My girl, Anita Sirene (formally known as Star Girl), did a YouTube video with her predictions for March. I promise you, out of the three groups to pick from, I felt God screaming in my spirit, ‘PICK NUMBER THREE!!!’ Amazingly, in that same group, Anita said this:

“Heard some of you are going to be joining a church or some of you are going to be active in a church or active in a Spiritual Community. A lot of you are destined to be spiritual leaders, is what I’m hearing or just you’re meant to be leaders in general. YOU’RE MEANT TO BE AN INFLUENCER OF GOD (WINK! WINK!), Group Three, which means the way that you lived, who it is that you are, the way that you move, is supposed to be a representation of God or of your belief system.

_So, you’re really being put in the spotlight in March, where your energy is highly influential because God’s putting you in the spotlight in March to influence people with your energy and your behavior. This is your Phoenix Rising month, guys, so you know if you have been going through a lot of bad luck, if life has been really bad, in March this is when you’re really gonna start feeling better again. You’re gonna start feeling like your old self. _

And I’m hearing like a spiritual belief system is really carrying you through. Like it’s really helped you transform whatever that is, so the point I’m trying to make is that February sucked. I’m willing to bet your life has pretty much sucked since December, but March is going to start getting a lot better.”

God truly makes me feel like His fav girl with the attention and love He shows me by even going to the extent of having Anita deliver that message to me. Yay, I’m not crazy – I AM A GOD INFLUENCER!!! This message was completely spot on! December, especially, was a rough month, but as Anita stated, my spiritual belief system continues to carry me through a rough life patch. Knowing God is with me, even in my lowest moments, gives me the courage, joy, and strength to keep going.

No alcohol or drugs were needed to numb the pain; I went to God. Reading our family’s website was my go-to spot to hear from Him, and let me tell ya, when you sincerely seek God, you will find Him. He would always figure out some way to let me see even a tiny glimmer of His Presence with me. And I made it through, moment by moment, step by step, and day by day, holding on to God’s hand. I TRUST IN GOD’S FAITHFULNESS!

I honestly feel like my old self again, but with an entirely new perspective on life. Today, in talking to a customer/friend (who I’m a little bit upset with because he divorced his wife), he said he followed his happiness to make decisions. I explained to him that I make decisions by asking God what would make Him happy, and in doing that (following God’s leading and guiding principles like loving unconditionally, faithfulness, and loyalty), He has led my life on a beautiful path. Everything is between God and us, not between us and anyone else! Obedience to Him is the way to the best life!

This morning, under my God tree, hubby and I continued our prayer streak (even if I’m boiling angry, I still call for us to pray together!), and we thanked God for exceeding our expectations. Not everything is perfect, but in looking at the big picture, WE ARE INCREDIBLY GRATEFUL FOR EVERYTHING GOD HAS DONE AND CONTINUES TO DO FOR US (things could be lots worse!). I also once again recommitted my life to God, asking Him to help me be an even better wife, mom, and person (His influencer!) on His behalf in the world.

Make sure you pray and seek God’s guidance for your life-PRAYERS DO CHANGE THINGS (Wink! Wink!). Our God is with us and wants a relationship with you, too!!! Pray for a closer walk with Him while learning to pause and include Him in every decision you make by listening to Him in your spirit (like how He told me to pick number three for that special message from Him). His sheep know His voice!

“NO ONE IS GOING TO COME AND DESTROY OUR FAMILY, PERIOD!!!”

That was a conversation I had with my daughter, Ember, recently! As I fight for our family, I teach her and our other kids to do the same thing when it’s their turn. OUR FAMILIES STICKING TOGETHER IS IMPORTANT TO GOD! But even more important is our personal relationships with Him to know where He is directing us on a moment-by-moment basis. I laughed with God at how I felt Him telling me to go to Nigeria one minute, and the next, He was saying to stand down. God, which is it? You’re confusing me here! (LOL!)

I can’t get over how God talks to me through our family friend, Ceri. He did one of his recordings one day mentioning training like Rocky and something like trusting the process. Your girl here took that as her cue to get into Rocky mode for 50 days, training myself like I was preparing for a big fight (and the fight is on!). I said I would run a 5K (3.11 miles), and every day your girl has been getting stronger and stronger to take on my life, man. This life is truly no joke! I go to my God tree to pray with my husband. I also use it as an opportunity to RECOMMIT myself to God, asking for His help in becoming the Nik He would have me to be – wiser, stronger, to have more faith and less fear, courageous, more loving and forgiving, gentler, peaceful, faithful, loyal, focused, disciplined in my thoughts and actions, so help us all, God, please!

I’ve added in the Nike Running Club app, and today it was listening to Olympian English Gardener, Coach Bennet, and Andy Puddicombe. I thoroughly enjoyed every single moment, taking lots of notes (I paraphrase here!):

“Only the impossible is worth doing” (like me wanting to bring a billion people closer to God!)

“Fight fear with faith” (constantly replacing negative thoughts with ones of knowing God is with us at every moment – our help comes from the Lord! TRUSTING GOD WITH ALL OUR HEARTS!!!)

“Mistakes are ok!” (let’s keep using them to learn from and be better! Also, being gentler with ourselves and others)

“To stay hopeful despite how things may seem” (our Hope is in God, and there is no situation too difficult for Him! The battles don’t belong to us; they belong to God! Wink! Wink!

“I spoke to myself better” (something we can all work on! Nik, I’m so proud of you! You may fall a million times, but you keep getting back up!)

“Make every moment count” (keep giving your best with your constant focus on God and what He would have you do!

“I made myself get back up after every fall” (I push myself out to do that 5K every day whether I feel like it or not!)

“You come back stronger after you fall -wiser, more confident, and humbler” (me too!!!)

“If I can survive being homeless twice, I can survive anything!” (as long as we have breath and God, we’re good! Let’s keep going!)

“You have your bouts, but you keep swinging. Life will throw you some hard balls!” (God’s grace is enough to tackle any situation!)

“Appreciate life!” (HEEHAW!!! Knowing we have God with us!)

“SORRY YOU HAVE TO DEAL WITH THIS HARD STUFF”

That was from my sweetie pie daughter, Julie, today. She was referring to some messy and complicated stuff I’m facing that had me book an immediate flight to Nigeria. This life is not easy! But what’s truly astonishing about the whole situation is how God found all these ways to show me that I don’t handle life alone; He is with me. HEEHAW!!!

Yesterday, in all my anger, I stopped in the middle of my run to rush to my lap top to see if I could leave to Nigeria the same day. As I’m on the website, a friend calls me, out of the blue, and shockingly asks, “Are you in Nigeria yet?” I replied, “Boo, why are you asking me that?” And she said, “I’ve been meaning to ask you for a while, but keep forgetting.” I then told her how I was right in front of my laptop at that very moment, on the actual airline’s website, about to book the ticket. We both were in shock as to how God would have her to call at that precise time, as if confirming that HE HIMSELF was saying I needed to go and make that flight. Let me tell ya, God is pretty talkative! Like no way, that was a coincidence that she called from the other side of the world asking me that question as I sat there so angrily searching for a flight.

Then, I’ve been in this Rocky mode for the past two weeks or so where I run 3.11 miles everyday. So, with all my emotions flying so high, I decided to call the airline directly to ask them to help me book it. To speak to an agent, guess what numbers I needed to press on the phone: 311. Then, my phone sends me an email to remind me of the flight at exactly 3:11 am! Again, no coincidence, God HIMSELF again saying Nik, take that flight!!!

Then, I was talking to my sister, Verona, about the situation and told her how this lady told me that the conversation I needed to have with my husband was one where I needed to go and have FACE TO FACE. Going to eat my dinner and continue watching this TV show, ‘Married At First Sight,’ a couple of hours later, the very episode I continued from was entitled “FACE TO FACE.” Again, GOD HIMSELF saying, Nik, get your butt to Nigeria and talk to hubs FACE TO FACE.

Fast forward to today, and after having a major fight with hubby about the entire thing, can you believe the message I felt from God was to stand down and NOT go. Yup, the crazy lady was told by God to go away! I felt Him in my spirit telling me to be kind and gentle with hubs instead.

I have to thank my God influencer, Ceri, who has taught me about loving others unconditionally and how God gives us the ability to forgive. And my brother, Kevin, who said we should not be God, but His angels. On that show, a pastor of one of the cast members said something significant: “You made a vow before God for better or for worse.” So when I look at the situation from a God perspective, I’m reminded of how much I mess up, and God loves and forgives me, and how He commands us to do the same for others.

I was happy for the little hash out with hubs (crazy lady needed to make that appearance!). Still, listening to God (where I want us all continually), I went back on the high road of loving extravagantly and forgiving endlessly. NO ONE IS PERFECT! This afternoon I was back telling the kids in our family group that we should all overwhelm their dad with our deep love, respect, and appreciation for all he has done and continues to do. I remain loyal, boo.

SOMETIMES YOU WILL HAVE TO WALK THROUGH SOME DUCK POOP!

That’s God having fun with me when I went for my noontime appointment with Him. What I love most about former President Trump is that he taught me, “It is what it is!” There will be some messy, challenging, complex, tricky, frustrating, overwhelming stuff we will face – it is what it is – but all my vlogs and blogs aim to teach you how to deal with them from the Almighty God’s perspective. Wink! Wink! We’re not alone, my peeps, WE GOT GOD AND HE GOT US!!!

Like yesterday, when a difficult situation came up, your girl had to come out swinging like Tiger Woods’s wife – NO, I’M NOT TAKING THIS BS ANY LONGER, PERIOD! THERE IS A CERTAIN THING CALLED RESPECT!!! Don’t let the cute face and pleasant smile fool ya! That was all based on my conversation with God that’s going on all day in my head. The next day the message was completely different, and the softer Nik needed to return. So all day, 24/7, I want us there with God, seeking His input on every situation.

I loved this comment today from a long-time Facebook friend:

“You have such a beautiful Soul. You’re beautiful on the inside and out. You are also hurting. I’ve heard you say many times people tell you you’re always talking about God and how u need to have faith. You are the type of woman that wants and need that physical, spiritual, n mental support from your twin flame 24/7 – 365. You come across as not having faith because you’re hurting. You need, want n deserve hubby to be right there by your side.”

I replied, “No, I needed to know that God is always beside me. That’s the big lesson in all the hurts.” And my message to us all – people will hurt us, disappoint us, and forsake us, but every time I get hurt, I run to God, and HE IS ALWAYS THERE TO WRAP HIS ARMS AROUND ME AND LET ME KNOW THAT EVERYTHING WILL BE ALRIGHT. That’s the sweetness of God I want the entire world to feel with me. God tells me that sometimes He doesn’t mind me having the worst days, and I don’t mind either. Those difficult days took me closer to Him. (HUGE SMILE)

And from God’s perspective, I look at situations lots clearer. Nik, did they remove one strand of hair from your head? Nik, look where you are – you have a gorgeous life; enjoy it! So, if that means taking my 10,000 punches (the hurts) for God, I say no problem because God honestly EXCEEDS my expectations with the love and attention He shows me.

I’m well taken care of by God and hubby! Those hurts from hubby, I take them too because of the person he is. I honestly call him better than best hubby! Nobody’s perfect! So if he messes up, I forgive him. I love him unconditionally because of his track record of going overboard in his responsibilities as a husband and dad – I remain loyal, boo! But sometimes I must check him, though, and say, “Buddy, this is going a little bit too far! Check yourself before you wreck yourself!

BUT MOST IMPORTANTLY, I WILL NEVER GIVE UP ON HIM AND OUR MARRIAGE, so help me, God. I’m the super glue that keeps the family together (my role from God!) Badass wifey here! Our sticking together and fighting for our families is crucial to Him. But every situation is different, and that’s where constant and continual conversations with God come in! Make sure you are having your appointments with Him, reading or listening to anything spiritual, to learn His voice and direction for your life.