“I’M TRYING TO LOVE YOU LIKE YOU SUPPOSED TO BE LOVED”

That’s God singing to me through DJ Khaled, Future, and Lil Baby! Heehaw! That’s honestly how He makes me feel, like the most loved person in the universe with all the love and attention I receive from Him! Like my brother Kevin sent me a voice note, sounding upset that I didn’t come to him for help. I said, “It was all a test from God to let me know that I AM SECURE IN HIM.” Less than an hour later, I had an appointment with God, and this showed up:

“…Victoria continued: “I believe that God wants us to understand that WE ARE SECURE IN HIM (Wink! Wink!).”

Fast forward to me waking up in the middle of the night feeling extremely overwhelmed and anxious, I asked God to pick a TikTok video for me to watch. I closed my eyes and scrolled, letting my finger land on the video God wanted me to watch, and the very one I picked was captioned:

“GOD WANTS US TO KNOW THAT WE ARE SECURE IN HIM”

NO ONE CAN TELL ME THAT WAS A RANDOM COINCIDENCE!!! You guys see the love of God to first give me this gift of a brother who gets upset if I don’t call him to ask for help! He is like 10,000 brothers in one! I don’t know where I would be without him. Told him today that I would have probably been addicted to drugs or alcohol by now if I didn’t have him and God to run to for advice. Second, to have that message from Victoria line up less than an hour later, and of the hundreds of videos I have on TikTok, for me to close my eyes and pick that specific one was all God revealing His love and intimate presence with us.

I know I am like a broken record, but please prioritize God! I DON’T WANT TO FEEL THIS LOVED BY MYSELF! Every day, I run to my God tree, and I don’t leave until I have some glimmer of His Presence to start my day on a strong and courageous note, knowing God Himself is with me. TAKE YOUR RELATIONSHIP WITH GOD SERIOUSLY!!! Wake up every day asking Him what He has to say to you so you learn His voice when you’re back in the world! TRUST ME, THIS LIFE IS TOO HARD TO DO ON OUR OWN!!!

GOD SPEAKS TO ME FACE TO FACE, BABY!

Yesterday was a pretty rough day for your girl! After the crazy lady showed up dealing with some messy love stuff, I went for a run this morning and as Burna Boy says the number 21 in the song I was listening to, I looked down at my phone and saw the number 21 and because that lined up a little bit too perfectly, I went to page 21 of our family website and incredibly read this:

“… AND ALL THAT SURROUNDS YOU ARE SECRETS AND LIES (Wink! Wink!)”

Wow! God is all up in my business! For that 21 to show up in that song AND on my phone precisely together was a wink from God saying, ‘Nik, you need to read this old post AGAIN!’ Here’s the complete post with God precisely telling me how to handle my life at the moment:

““… AND ALL THAT SURROUNDS YOU ARE SECRETS AND LIES”

Those are the lyrics of a song I said describe exactly my life at the moment. It is what it is, folks! We have to take the joy with the pain, the sunshine with the rain (that’s life!), and continually ask God for the grace and strength to deal with whatever comes. So, in asking God how to wrap my mind around the secrets and lies, I went for a talk with Him under my God tree. No shame in my game! I need God! Can you believe I saw the number 23, and I went to page 23 of our family’s website and this message from years ago showed up at the very top of that page:

“… but more in the sense of what we mean by “trust.” THIS GOES BEYOND SIMPLY PRESUMING THAT THE OTHER IS NOT LYING OR CHEATING (Wink! Wink!). Such basic trust recognizes GOD’S LIGHT SHINING BEYOND THE DARKNESS… This trust enables a relationship to be free. It means we do not have to control the other person, to follow their every step lest they escape our grip. Love trusts, it sets free, it does not try to control…

…This means that love bears every trial with a positive attitude. It stands firm in hostile surroundings. This “endurance” involves not only the ability to tolerate certain aggravations (or like I put it, putting up with some things we may not like), but something greater: A CONSTANT READINESS TO CONFRONT ANY CHALLENGE. IT’S A LOVE THAT NEVER GIVES UP, EVEN IN THE DARKEST HOUR. It shows a certain dogged heroism, a power to resist every negative current, AN IRREPRESSIBLE COMMITMENT TO GOODNESS.” – The Joy of Love by Pope Francis

Is that amazing or what? I’m asking God how to deal with the secrets and lies, and He gave me specific instructions to see His light shining beyond the darkness and confront this challenge from a loving and positive space of never giving up and having an even stronger and passionate commitment to goodness. God is the best therapist! I stopped everything I was doing to go and have that run so I could have some alone time to chat, and He had the perfect post there waiting for me. We love because God first loved us. (HUGE SMILE)

That’s why I say, ‘Don’t mess around with your relationship with God!’ We need His help! See the loving way He showed up to help me with my struggles today. He is in the fires of life with us! I ran back from that tree super happy and ready to stand firm and confront any challenge that comes my way, knowing God is intimately involved in every moment. He is with you, too! Nothing we face is too complicated for Him. It’s just for us to seek Him and ask for His perspective on whatever challenge we’re facing. And then start paying attention to His answers. He is pretty talkative!

These posts I hope help us all to get stronger: tougher, more confident in God, brave and courageous, but I want us to also work on getting softer: more loving, gentler, patient, kinder, humble, compassionate, supportive, understanding, lighthearted, joyful, merciful, faithful, enduring and putting up with stuff we may not like, devoted, generous, and thinking less of ourselves and more of others. So help us, God! Amen!

“ONLY GOD GOT US OUT OF THIS!!!”

That was me to my son, Joshie, when we had our daily appointment with God today! It was a mistake where my husband accidentally placed a bid on a costly vehicle (the price of a very nice house!), and the buyer accepted his offer. We asked them to withdraw as a “goodwill” because of our mistake, but they refused. So, there began our mission to figure out this situation.

After another company refused to help us pay for it, because it was too much of a risk for them. I immediately called my husband in Nigeria to let him know this bad news. Still, before calling, I wanted to tell him we should speak to this gentleman in Orlando who had helped us out before. Before I could mention it, hubby immediately said, “Call the guy in Orlando.” My body became filled with goosebumps!” Goosebumps are a significant communication from God, saying this time, ‘Yes, My peeps, this is the way to go!’

I was not able to speak to him, though. They put me in touch with another employee, Sharon, who was happy to assist me with a solution, allowing us three weeks to sort out the issue. She gave me her contact number because she said I would call her often. Calling her often I certainly did! In one of those calls, I told her we went to pick up the vehicle from the pick-up location, and it was not there. She said, “Oh, that’s a reason you can arbitrate and back out of this sale because the sellers were supposed to have it there within 72 hours of the sale. We immediately contacted the arbitration department and said we no longer wanted the vehicle.

I called hubby from under the God tree today, saying, “Today is the day they will move that vehicle out of our account!” A few minutes later, I looked up the status on my computer, and it said $0.00 owed because the buyer (that’s us!) withdrew! We won the arbitration case, thanks to Sharon! So those goosebumps from God led me directly to her! I called her today and thanked her for being patient and understanding in helping us sort the situation out. GOD IS GREAT!!!

When I saw the email saying we purchased that vehicle, it was a constant conversation with God! The following day, I ran in the dark, asking God for His direction, and He didn’t disappoint!

Even down to the tow truck company, God told me to stick with my guy, Jason, who cold-called me one day, asking if I had any long-distance towing needs. He then helped me deliver two vehicles safely, and because of that, he earned my trust and loyalty. The feeling from God was to stick with Jason on this super expensive vehicle, too.

But here’s what happened. Jason and his team kept promising me for days to pick up the vehicle, and every day, they disappointed me. Finally, we got the tow to arrive, only to find out the car wasn’t there, exceeding the 72 hours the seller was allowed to deliver! And swoosh, just like that, we got out of that trouble! Phew!

The thing has taken my confidence in God super high, though! The time I spend running every day and seeking God has not been wasted! I’ve learned God’s voice pretty well – Nik, stick with Jason and be patient with them. Nik, call the guy in Orlando. Nik, call Sharon and tell her the vehicle was not at the pick-up location.

Also, the values I learned in these times with God, like having PATIENCE with Jason and being LOYAL to him. Also, this particular auction, we’ve stayed loyal to them, which was a big part of why Sharon went overboard in assisting us. LOYALTY PAYS!!!! When other people suggest that we purchase vehicles from other auctions for our family business, hubby and I always stick with this one. Like that’s the order from God Himself!!! Loyalty and patience also got me this better than best husband that it’s my privilege to stick with him and fight whatever battles come our way! LOYALTY AND PATIENCE, MY PEEPS, ARE REWARDED BY GOD. Don’t worry what anyone else is doing, you be the person God has called you to be!

MAKE SURE YOU ARE TAKING YOUR ALONE TIME WITH GOD SERIOUSLY! He is truly our best friend! Learn His voice and follow His guidance one moment and step at a time. Problems are a part of life, but we can relax (not in a lazy way!) knowing God Himself stands with us and is ready to help us tackle anything that comes our way. We’re not going by the ordinary rules. Our help comes from the Lord! Wink! Wink! Are you getting to know His voice and ways better?

And the way He shows up for me!!! Like this morning, before going for my run, I listened to this lady advising someone who had been in a marriage for a long time, with kids, to break up because staying together was not worth their freedom, sanity, and soul. They should consider the price of self for the pain, hurt, manipulation, and betrayal they would have to endure by staying. I commented:

“When you have kids, the rules change. You must make decisions based on what is best for the team, not just yourself.”

Maybe an hour later, I was sitting down for my appointment with God by my God tree. Out of 146 web pages, God took me to page 4, where I wrote this in an old post:

“Also, I feel Ceri’s message about God resonates with me as to the person God would have me to be. That’s why I stalk him because His Godly influence about loving God and loving others is helping me make SOME CRUCIAL DECISIONS ON BEHALF OF MY FAMILY. I love how my beloved calendar (Mottos for Success) puts it:

“A team player thinks of his teammates whenever he makes a move, and he makes decisions according to what is better for the team, not just himself.” (Wink! Wink!)

“Let each of you look out not only for his own interests, but also the interests of others.” – Philippians 2:4″

God Himself orchestrated that message because OUR FAMILIES ARE IMPORTANT TO HIM!!! And God didn’t stop there, either! When I needed an appointment with Him when I was feeling a bit overwhelmed and under pressure, of all the verses in the Bible, look what incredibly showed up in my Tumblr feed with God saying, ‘YES!!!! THIS IS WHAT I AM EXPECTING FROM YOU GUYS!!!’:

“Do nothing out of selfishness or out of vainglory; rather, humbly regard others as more important than yourselves, each looking out not for his own interests, but [also] everyone for those of others.” – Philippians 2:3-4

No one can tell me all of this happening in a few hours was a coincidence! It was all God! I tell my kids that if I have to swallow a bomb for them, I will – I’m that momma! However, Ember, my daughter, feels she is too young to pay that price for her mental health and soul, so she just broke off a relationship.

It’s a constant conversation with God. He tells me to stay in the ring and take the punches through my brother, Kevin. He tells Ember, that’s not the one for you, my sweetie, run! I’m so proud of her! She said, “Mom, I’m improving myself!” I told her to make sure she’s waking up to appointments with God every day! I said stay with the One who brought you to the dance-God! God undoubtedly picked her university for her, arranged an excellent scholarship package, and a job at Nike, which is like one straight road from her campus. That’s the deep love God shows my family, y’all!! Our motto is to do our best and leave the rest with Him! MAKE SURE YOU ARE HAVING DAILY APPOINTMENTS WITH HIM TO LEARN HIS VOICE AND VALUES TO HELP US MAKE THE WISEST AND BEST DECISIONS FOR OUR INDIVIDUAL LIVES!!!

“ALL I NEED IN THIS LIFE OF SIN IS GOD!!!”

I loved this message from yrmanda.a via Instagram! Let me tell ya, I be enjoying my Instagram a lil too much (their algorithm has completely figured me out!), but I pick up on so many crucial messages from God there. Like this one yesterday, I particularly loved:

“One of the biggest traps of the devil is, ‘You’re doing the sin; how can you go and pray?” Brothers and sisters, let me make this very clear: I don’t care if you are the biggest drug dealer sitting here. I said this so many times. I don’t care, my sister, if you are involved in a very serious filthy haram (forbidden) relationship… Don’t let that be the reason why you are held back from praying (spending alone time with God). Biggest trap from the devil is to stop you from doing that which is most important to you…” – Message to Mankind

Wow! Wow! Wow! That one blew the God maniac here away because that feeling that we have to get all cleaned up for God is the biggest lie ever!!!! We’re so used to being judged by other humans that we feel God is the same way, but He is entirely the opposite. He loves us all unconditionally, and we can know that even if we’re head high in sin! Even if we’re at the letter Z (the lowest), He invites us to a relationship with Him, where He helps us work on our weaknesses, struggles, and challenges. HIS LOVE IS TOO MUCH, and it is for us all to enjoy!

So many times I would fall what would feel like a million times in one day, and He sweetly says through this Justin Bieber song:

“Sometimes I DON’T MIND YOU HAVIN’ THE WORST DAY (Wink! Wink)…
Let your frustrations out right here
I’m Your Psychiatrist, let’s talk about it…
I see the weight weighin’ on your shoulders
It’s so heavy
Let Me be the meaning of your composure”

And that was honestly me running to my God tree today feeling overwhelmed, stressed, and burdened. Still, He found a way to let me know He was indeed the meaning of my composure when I continued reading from exactly where I had last left off with an appointment with hubby after 3 am this morning from our Jesus Calling Devotional, and it was entitled:

‘A Child of the King’

I immediately looked down at the bracelet I’ve been wearing for months now that says “Child of the King’ in the exact colors from the book of red font with white. No coincidence! But what freaked me out was my conversation with my brother, Kevin, yesterday and telling him that I finally know who I am and whose I am, and this incredibly showed up at the end of that very day’s devotional:

“Never forget who you are and Whose you are!” (Wink! Wink!)

Don’t let the devil cause you to miss out on this deep and intimate love from God! How could the words from my bracelet and my conversation with Kevin appear there? God again revealed a glimmer of His invisible presence that is always with us. Wake up every day to your appointments with God and take them seriously, NO MATTER HOW OFF TRACK YOU FEEL!!!,

I love my messages from Ceri and how he says he is extremely far from perfect (me too!), but every day he gets up and works on himself (me too!). On one, he critically asks, ‘Do you want to be better?’

God is love!!!! Don’t let anyone tell you otherwise! Don’t miss out on the most crucial relationship -your relationship with Papa God! Flee Devil, flee!!!

GOD HAS TO BE THE ONE WE LOVE!

I had the best time getting dressed for work singing to God and Him singing to us all today through Jagged Edge’s song, ‘I Gotta Be:’

Me to Him:

Is it real?
What I feel
Could it be? You and me
‘Til the end of time
Never part
Take my heart
Hold it tight, it’s true love

Him to me:

I gotta be the One you love (I’m telling you that)
I gotta be the One you feel
And I gotta be the One to fill your life with sunshine
I gotta be the One you know
‘Cause I will always love you so (I’m loving you, girl)
I gotta be the One you need
I’m just telling you that I gotta be

DON’T MISS OUT ON ALL THIS LOVE FROM GOD! This life is too rough! WE NEED GOD! I was so happy to share with my daughters all that I’ve been learning from my brothers, Kevin and Ceri. Like Ember’s feeling some emotional pain, and I’m like, ‘I’m the queen of that!’ (LOL!) I told her how Kevin told me to make God my top priority and focus, and that’s the best advice ever. When you are close to God, He will tell you how much emotional energy to give everyone. PUT EVERYONE IN THEIR PROPER PERSPECTIVE BECAUSE NO ONE IS MEANT TO FILL THE SPACE IN OUR HEARTS WHERE GOD ALONE SHOULD BE. The momma here has been getting it seriously wrong! Kevin also taught me to stay in the ring and take the 10,000 punches (not physical!!!) because life will throw 10,000 punches at you. IMPORTANT LESSONS GOD TEACHES US WHEN WE DON’T GIVE UP SO EASILY! Just make sure that you involve God in the discussion about who is worth taking these punches from! Wink! Wink!

I don’t play with my Ceri messages! I start every day listening to him and doing a complete reset on my brain about the thoughts God Himself would have me to think! The recording today was super great where he spoke about these verses that are becoming extremely special to me and God:

“But you belong to God, my dear children. You have already won a victory over those people, because the Spirit who lives in you is greater than the spirit who lives in the world. – 1 John 4:4 (The peace you cannot buy knowing you walk with God and He is greater than anything we will ever face!)

“We know how much God loves us, and we have put our trust in his love. God is love, and all who live in love live in God, and God lives in them. And as we live in God, our love grows more perfect. So, we will not be afraid on the day of judgment, but we can face him with confidence because we live like Jesus here in this world. Such love has no fear, because perfect love expels all fear. If we are afraid, it is for fear of punishment, and this shows that we have not fully experienced his perfect love.” – 1 John 4:16

Ceri spoke about how John was very close to Jesus, and he spoke so much about love! THIS IS WHERE GOD WANTS US—LOVING HIM AND LOVING EACH OTHER!!!

GOD DOES NOT WANT US JUDGING EACH OTHER!!!

And He went to great extents to say this to me! This God wink started with my sit-down conversation with my sister on Saturday. She said that she got herself in trouble when she started quoting the scriptures to a friend about their lifestyle choices. I said to her, “No, sweetie! That’s not our job to judge anyone. Only God can judge.” She told me the verses, and I explained that Jesus himself said some of the Bible was incorrect in his opinion, and I quoted this from Jesus:

“You have heard that it was said, ‘Eye for eye, and tooth for tooth (this is written in the old testament!).’ But I tell you, do not resist an evil person. If anyone slaps you on the right cheek, turn to them the other cheek also. And if anyone wants to sue you and take your shirt, hand over your coat as well. If anyone forces you to go one mile, go with them two miles. Give to the one who asks you, and do not turn away from the one who wants to borrow from you. — Mathew 5:38-42

I told her how Jesus told the crowd who wanted to stone the woman who committed adultery that anyone without sin should cast the first stone. No one did because we all are sin-ridden creatures! NONE OF US ARE PERFECT!!! So, Ceri has been teaching me to not judge; instead of looking at the speck we might like about others, we should look at ourselves.

I then have breakfast with my brother, Jason, and it’s the same conversation – J, judging anyone is not our job. We are to love them!

Then, of all verses, my sister Nora quotes this one on here Facebook wall:

“DO NOT judge and criticize and condemn others, so that you may not be judged and criticized and condemned yourselves. For just as you judge and criticize and condemn others, you will be judged and criticized and condemned, and in accordance with the measure you [use to] deal out to others, it will be dealt out again to you.” – Matthew 7:1-2 AMPC

I asked Nora if she discussed with Melba our conversation as to why she picked those verses. She said she hadn’t spoken to Melba, but just God’s spirit within her told her to select that one.

I then called my son/spiritual guy, Joshie, all the way in Nigeria to have an appointment with God with Him, and of our entire 365-day devotional, he on his own read this to me:

“Do not judge, and you will not be judged. Do not condemn, and you will not be condemned. Forgive, and you will be forgiven. – Luke 6:37

The message for that day, written as if God was speaking, said this:

“My children make a hobby out of judging one another—and themselves. But I am the only true Judge. I hate seeing My children put themselves down or judge others.” – Jesus Calling Devotional for Kids

Got that? GOD SAYS HE IS THE ONLY TRUE JUDGE!!! He wants us to love and forgive each other, not condemn and judge!!! I am so grateful to my church time with Ceri daily and all the valuable lessons he is teaching me about walking with God. God is using Ceri to rewire my character, making me stronger and softer! Make sure you check out his Ceri’s words of wisdom playlist on our We Roll with God channel.

“Since God chose you to be the holy people he loves, you must clothe yourselves with tenderhearted mercy, kindness, humility, gentleness, and patience. Make allowance for each other’s faults, and forgive anyone who offends you. Remember, the Lord forgave you, so you must forgive others. Above all, clothe yourselves with love, which binds us all together in perfect harmony.” – Colossians 3:12-14 NLT

“I’VE FIGURED OUT YOUR SECRETS!!!”

That was me to a Muslim client today whom I’ve only met two brief times, but he has had such a grand impression on me! Such that I would even say, “Here’s my daughter; marry her, please (just kidding!)!” His charm, strength, and softness truly got my attention. So, I’ve been watching these Muslim pastors on Instagram, and I’ve figured out what I found so appealing about him:

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His closeness to God! Muslims pray five times a day, and one time, I called him, and he said her would call me back when he had finished with the Mosque. I told you guys how the pastor said to take those prayers seriously because the more you spend time with God, the more His character rubs off on you! Like God is this all-powerful Being (strong!), yet at the same time so soft in the way that He finds all these sweet ways of letting us know that He is with us – so humble, extremely loving, lighthearted, fun and down to earth.

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Discipline! Honestly, at a very young age, Muslim kids are taught how to fast and have self-control, and I just sensed that this young man is very disciplined, and why I could say, ‘Marry my daughter!' Discipline is also one of the fruits of the spirit taught by Christianity that I’m constantly working on! I call it sweet discipline because I love myself better when I’m training myself like an athlete to be more self-controlled - mentally, physically, and spiritually. Heehaw!

That’s my message for us today! As that Muslim Pastor advised, take your alone time with God seriously! Every day, I run to my God tree to commune with God. I realize what HE is doing with me in those alone times. He is rewiring me on the inside as if saying, ‘Nik, these are the parts of your character I would like you to work on.’ Like He lovingly corrects us, making us softer and, at the same time, strengthening our inner beings when we take time to just be with Him and tap into His voice and the people He would like us to be.

That’s also where we develop discernment, Godly wisdom, values, principles, and guidance. You then know what God Himself would have you do moment-by-moment so that we don’t get misled by the teachings and bad advice thrown at us by the world, but we know what God Himself would have us do! MAKE GOD YOUR PARTNER IN EVERY ASPECT OF YOUR LIFE! TAKE THOSE APPOINTMENTS WITH GOD SERIOUSLY!!! This life is too hard to do on our own!

GOD CONFIRMS THAT HE IS MY PARTNER!!!

Wow! Forget about it, Ember, I’m definitely God’s fav! God loves us so much that my daughter and I argue over who is God’s fav, me or her! We’re a family rolling with God, baby! What more can I say? Knowing me, LOTS!!!!

So, I’m back in the US trying to unpause our family’s business. Yesterday, I was discussing with our manager how he said we should put “In God We Trust” on our signs because we want to honor God in everything we do and not give God a bad reputation for acting poorly. Can you believe God got involved in our conversation a few hours later? I was throwing out the trash when I felt God in my spirit saying to take up a book. Look what incredibly showed up guys:

“You have a store? Have you taken God into partnership with you? Do you start every day with quiet, purposeful communion with God? Do you really ask God just what to do in each and every transaction?” – The Story of Unity

The way I be running to my God tree, even in the dark sometimes, just to have a quiet and purposeful communion with Him to build up my courage to get this business going again, has been something else. God had me open this book to reveal another glimmer of His presence with me as if saying, ‘Nik, relax, my boo, I’m your partner in this business, remember!!!’ NO WAY THIS WAS SOME RANDOM COINCIDENCE!!!

Honestly, though, God is my Partner and Guide in every aspect of my life, and He wants to be involved in yours as well, but you must take the time to get to develop a relationship with Him. I feel like I am in a different realm of closeness with God now. Of all my old pictures yesterday, I decided to reuse one that said this:

“God gives us more than we can imagine when we stick with Him.”

Fast forward to having an appointment with my son Emmie, out of 366 posts in my book, he selected post number 300 that God used to confirm the caption on that picture:

“When we stick with God, seeking to please Him in all our ways, He leads us on the path to these unimaginable lives – I’m talking meaningful, joyful, peaceful, and happy.”

I was so happy talking to Ember today! She was on her way driving to work at Nike, and there is no doubt that God Himself planned everything for my daughters in New York, including this job at Nike! We’re not going by the ordinary rules, guys, we’re rolling with God, the King of Kings, and His spirit is at work in the spiritual realm on our behalf. Our family motto is to do the best of our abilities and then leave the rest for God! If God is for us, who can be against us!!!!

Please don’t miss out on this most crucial relationship with God where you start learning His voice!!! Wake up every day to have quiet, purposeful communion with Him reading or listening to anything spiritual that connects you with Him. I don’t want to feel this loved by God by myself! (HUGE SMILE)

“ARE YOU HAPPY?”

That was the question from my brother, Jason, yesterday. I replied, “J, happiness is overrated! You can follow bliss and pleasure, and they can lead you down very wrong and dark paths. I instead look for true joy, fulfillment, and well-being from having a close relationship with God.

Like every day, I wake up like my life is on a mission from God to be His Rockstar wife, mom, and person in the world. To feel God’s deep and intimate love for me and know He is with me 24/7 as my life Partner and Guide is what I want the world to know – how deep, wide, high, and long God’s love is for us. Walking in His Divine favor, protection, and power!

And sometimes that means our happiness must go to the back seat, and we must instead pick up our crosses and carry them! It is what it is! Even though Kevin says my crosses are only specks of crosses, they are sometimes challenging and painful – not happy times – that God asks me to endure. And for God, who is doing so much for me, I say, ‘Anything to please You God, let me learn!’ DON’T FOLLOW HAPPINESS; FOLLOW GOD, ASKING HIM WHAT HE WOULD HAVE YOU DO IN EVERY CIRCUMSTANCE. EVERY RELATIONSHIP. EVERY DECISION.

God talks to me through Justin Bieber, saying, ‘You can take it out on Me.’ So that means when I look at everything God does for me, I can take all the disappointments, frustrations, and aggravations and hand them over to God because He exceeds anything I can imagine. My “311” showed up two times while out with Jason yesterday, and it’s my beautiful reminder from God to Be still (relax, stay calm, and let go of trying to control situations and people) and allow God to be God. We don’t have to fight our battles alone! DO YOUR UTMOST BEST AND LEAVE THE REST WITH GOD! He is the universe’s ultimate Controller, and I trust that whatever He wants for me is best for me!

I told hubs today that God can even use the devil to bless us! I bragged about how I’m in a new realm of closeness with God. “311” is also my reminder to stay on the HIGHEST road with God. Anything anyone else does is between them and God; whatever I do is between me and God! And let me tell ya, BEING OBEDIENT TO GOD IS WHERE THE BLESSINGS ARE – PEACE, JOY, LOVING RELATIONSHIPS, HEALTH, AND FINANCIAL SUPPORT. I love talking to my 91-year-old mom every day now! LOVE YOU, MY SWEETIE!

A Muslim preacher has given me great advice about taking my alone time with God more seriously, and I want you to do the same. In every aspect of our lives, I want us to involve God! I’ll never forget a conversation with my hubby when I had turned into a crazy lady on him, and he said, “Nikki, I’m tired of trying to justify myself to you. Talk to God about me!” God said, ‘Nik, I found you the best husband (for you!) in the world!’ I tell hubs that whatever we must go through, we will go through it together! No breaking up over here!

So, that’s where I want us, referring everything to God! Make Him our Partner and Guide! Don’t look to these people on social media (they be making me mad with all the terrible advice they feel they need to give people and destroying relationships!). Look to God! That’s where those appointments with Him will pay off! He knows the hearts of everyone and the best decision for us in every moment, but we must develop our relationship with Him so we know what He would have us to do. He will tell us how much emotional space and energy to give everyone! The Muslims have 5 daily prayers a day! Let’s learn from them, please, AND TAKE OUR RELATIONSHIP WITH GOD TO THE NEXT REALM! Wink! Wink!