GOD LOVES ME THE MOSTEST!

That’s how He honestly makes me feel with all the intimate and most tender attention I receive from Him. This morning I was running to my God tree, all upset with myself because I had such a terrible day yesterday, still dealing with getting all upset for not receiving my husband’s love, attention and approval (when will I learn, guys?!?) So here how God responded to that in our alone time together. I arrived at the tree at exactly 7:33 and went to page 33 first with God having this to say to His girl:

“TODAY, I RAN SIX MILES IN TWO HOURS UP AND DOWN THE STAIRS OF OUR HOUSE!!! I’m working on a better me, baby! The goal was to get rid of the old Nik and my constant sad and hurtful thoughts, and for a happier and more focused person to emerge (sadly, I’m still working on this years later!). The run was fantastic…I pretty much played one song repeatedly, ‘Let Me Be Love You,’ (William Singe’s version), imagining God singing these lyrics to me:

“You should let Me love you
Let me be the One to
Give you everything you want and need
Ooh baby good love and protection
Make Me your selection
Show you the way love’s supposed to be”

I read that, and it immediately turned my depressing thoughts into such joy and laughter with God. I knew right away that this was His fun and special way of speaking directly to me, sweetly saying, ‘Nik, how many times do you want Me to repeat this to you? LET ME BE THE ONE TO LOVE YOU, My Girl!!! Other humans only have so much love to give. Let me show you the way love’s supposed to be.”This is a message for you too, by the way!) Wink! Wink!

I’m talking precisely where I got it wrong yesterday! Then on page 7, God continued our conversations about my awful day yesterday when this showed up there:

Sometimes I don’t mind you havin’ the worst day…
Let your frustrations out right here
I’m your psychiatrist, let’s talk about it…
I see the weight weighin’ on your shoulders
It’s so heavy
Let me be the meaning of your composure
You can take it out on me…
I’ll be your punching bag, hit me with all of your might
And get it all out ’til you feel light
Yeah, I’m your plug
Whatever you need, I’ll make sure you get enough
And when your battery gets low
I’ma be the one to charge you up
Let me massage your mental and your physical
Whenever you lose doubt, I’ll be your miracle
When you’re around me, you should feel invincible
Please don’t forget that” – Take It Out On Me by Justin Bieber

This is God’s message to you too! There is so much tension, anger, frustration, and anxiety right now going on with everyone. Still, I’m a living witness that God is there through all of it. Let Him be the meaning of our composure, being calm and trusting He is with us through the good, bad, and ugly, trusting His with all our hearts.

I loved some messages from my angel/brother, Kevin, yesterday. He reminded me that we all are crazy sometimes, but, importantly, God is our co-pilot, helping us through difficult and turbulent times. When we are weak, He’s our strength. Honestly, the last two years, I’ve been on this rough emotional roller coaster, but God has stayed STRONG with me. I have no doubt that He is behind the scenes helping me. Even right now, I can’t get over how He protected me from making an awful decision. God, thank You!!!

This is why when the Bible says a person strikes you on one cheek, turn and offer him the other also. God telling me to stay on the high road with Him with my 311 showing up everywhere, loving extravagantly and forgiving endlessly, has been the best advice. When I compare my losses to all the blessings in my life from God (the huge wins), I say no problem, God, anything to please You, let me learn. The things I must suffer and endure, I do it for His glory.

I did a video call with hubby in Nigeria yesterday, showing off our beautiful life that he works so hard to make happen for us. With him, too, I can count all the losses against all the good that he brings to our lives. Ain’t nobody perfect! A pastor friend prayed for us yesterday that we can overcome any trouble that comes our way, by the grace of God. Amen.

Thank you, Justin Bieber, for my love songs from God.