That’s the message from Joseph Prince that I read today AND my personal experience with God. Like my husband keeps telling me that I should tell him what’s on my mind and that I shouldn’t be quiet about it. But repeatedly, I tell him that the WISER Nikki has learned to be silent and not everything has to be discussed, especially with this husband who has earned my silence. After spending the day with him at the office yesterday, I saw everything he goes through, and I said I will never give this husband a hard time again. So, today, in our appointment with God, instead of reading our Jesus Calling Devotional, I said let’s read from the book I published almost six years ago. I used the scroll button at the bottom to ask God what He had to say to us, and this incredibly showed up:
“I loved this reminder in my morning’s appointment time with God. That was enough to bring me back to my calm center, where I rest in God and trust Him, leaving all my burdens, knowing I face nothing alone and that we don’t go by the ordinary rules of man. But it isn’t an easy thing. Case in point: “You didn’t tell me you love me,” my hubby said to me at about 1 am. We had just talked on the phone about 20 minutes before this (he was in Nigeria, and I was in the U.S.), but he was calling back again, sensing something was wrong. To be honest, I was upset with him about something, but in that moment and wanting to give him a piece of my mind, I paused, and I went to God. The feelings were to calm down and be my most loving self, instead of losing it and saying something I might regret later.
I still haven’t told him why I was upset with him, but in thinking about it, I believe this experience with my hubby was a lesson for me from God to trust Him. Not every battle is for me to fight. I feel I have the best hubby in the world (this part got me crying and hubby came over to kiss me), and in our years of marriage, he has earned my love and respect, so much so that I can overlook a fault every now and again – nobody’s perfect. I see him doing his best at being a husband, father, and person, and I’m a super proud wife.
Going to God at that moment was the best solution, and I’m happy I did. I’M LEARNING NOT TO DISCUSS THINGS WITH ANYONE WHEN I’M UPSET, BUT TO WAIT UNTIL I’M CALM AND CAN DISCUSS THINGS SENSIBLY LIKE THIS TIME, OR NOT AT ALL (Wink! Wink!).
Dear God, in the difficult moments, may me learn to pause and seek You and what You would have us to do, being the super loving, patient, and forgiving people You have created us to be. Amen.”
And fast forward more than six years since writing that post, that wisdom of keeping silent and leaving specific battles with God has been the BEST way to go. TRUST ME, I GOT PLENTY TO SAY, BUT NOT EVERY BATTLE IS FOR US TO FIGHT. WE CAN TRUST GOD by going to Him amid our fires and storms, PAUSING, and asking Him what He would have us do, say, or go. Start feeling Him in your spirit as to what HE would have you do, little by little and step by step, listening and being obedient to Him trusting Him one moment at a time to get through any difficulties! WE’RE NOT GOING BY THE ORDINARY RULES; OUR GOD IS WITH US!!!
“I am the LORD, the God of all mankind. Is anything too hard for me?”