“Are you an alien?” commented my son, Joshie, yesterday. Very funny, my sweetie! He has been seeing me go hard with trying to find inventory for our business all week. I’ve been waking up as early as 4 am to just be about giving my best to every moment, all for the glory of God. And I’m giving God all the praise and glory for helping me to tackle my demons to get here with a clear and stable mind, with an even more intense focus on being the wife, mom, and person God would have me to be. (HUGE SMILE)
Even with all my imperfections, mistakes, and failures, though, I still feel so loved by God. Like for two days in a row, I wrote about this song that played this week in a pharmacy while waiting for my son, Emmie, to get his second dose of the COVID vaccine, feeling so strongly that this was God singing these lyrics to me:
“I must make you understand I want to be your Man” – Zapp and Roger
With my husband in Nigeria and me in the US with the kids, God always reminds me that He is my constant Companion and Partner. That all day, every day, I can count on Him to be there no matter the challenges that come my way (your girl is learning to be courageous!). Even as my Greatest friend to help tackle all those demons going on in my head! Can you believe after going out for my run yesterday and playing that one song repeatedly (sounds crazy, but no shame, I NEED GOD!), God confirmed that this song was indeed a message from Him to me? Look what incredibly showed up in a movie my daughter, Ember, picked for us to watch, of all them on Netflix, these lyrics unbelievably showed up on the screen:
“Just wanna be your man” Wink! Wink!
I felt like the most loved person in the world! No coincident here after I wrote about it two days in a row, played the song over and over again on my run, and for all songs for them to play in this movie, for these words to show up? All orchestrated by God to let me know His love for me. His way of sweetly helping me tackle my demons. ‘Let me be your Man, Nik!’
This morning I woke up again with God singing to me through Akon’s song ‘Beautiful’ saying,
“You’re a symbol of what every beautiful woman should be.”
Before running, I decided to have an appointment with God at 30 minutes past the hour to read page 30 of our family’s website and look what showed up:
“He even went as far as playing the song ‘Beautiful’ by Akon on my computer yesterday in a little heated moment with the boys who were upset at me… Others may see me a certain way, but He said, through that song, “You’re a symbol of what every beautiful woman should be.””
God confirmed His message! Others can see us however they want, but I want us working on seeing ourselves as God sees us – immeasurably loved and approved of no matter our screw-ups and failures. We can each hold our heads super high! He wants to be your Man, too. No matter where you are right now, know that He is with you, and there is no situation too difficult for us to turn around with his help backing us up (even with the crazy thoughts in our heads!). Pray for an even closer walk with Him, praying for His guidance, love, and support all day. Every day! Wink! Wink!
