So my job is to hear from Him, then share my experiences with you so that you, too, will start paying attention to what He is saying to you. On a moment-by-moment basis, we can learn God’s voice and what He would say to us to help us make the best decisions for our lives. HEEHAW!!!

I had the sweetest God wink (a glimmer of His invisible Presence with us when everything lines up a little bit too perfect to be considered an ordinary coincidence). Yesterday I had a beautiful day talking back and forth with my brother, Kevin. One conversation was about my mom’s 90th birthday celebration in the Bahamas. I asked him for a venue to host the event, and he suggested the GREEN PARROT Restaurant.

Fast forward a few hours later, I’m sitting watching TV with my sister, Kelly, and of all the shows and episodes we are watching on live TV, there is a scene with a GREEN PARROT on the shoulder of a background actor. The thing completely freaked me out! Like how could Kevin come up with the GREEN PARROT Restaurant for my mom’s party and on live TV (not my usual Netflix) for the show to highlight this actual GREEN PARROT be a normal coincidence? It was completely and totally orchestrated by God to let me (and you!) know that His invisible Presence is always with us.

Then, last night I went to chat with Ember about her new internship on Wall Street. I started telling her how we must be so grateful to her dad for all his sacrifices to put our family in such a great position. I said whatever my hubby and I have to go through, the good, bad and ugly, I WILL NEVER GIVE UP ON HIM.

Fast forward to this morning, I’m listening to my new messenger from God, Ceri, in our Breakfast and Bible chat group, and he amazingly says, “GOD WILL NEVER GIVE UP ON US.” I knew immediately that this was another God wink for Ceri to say those very words I said to my daughter so late last night. God has been teaching me to love others the way He loves us. He holds our sins and transgressions as far as the east is from the west from us. He loves us unconditionally no matter what we’ve done in the past. He wipes our slate clean every moment, and this is where He would have us to be with others, especially in our homes.

Ceri has also importantly been teaching me to let go of trying to control people and situations, and I should let God be God by allowing Him to take control. That GREEN PARROT showing up and Ceri repeating my words “WILL NEVER GIVE UP” were both God making me aware that His invisible Presence stands strong with me and I’m not going by the ordinary rules. ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE WITH GOD!!! He’s with you, too!!!


That’s me to my daughter, Ember! She interviewed for an internship with a firm on Wall Street in New York (only the world’s financial capital!), and she got it! YAYYY!!!! Let me tell you, it took massive strength to get her there (HARD THINGS ARE HARD!!!), but I’m giving all the glory to God. He has been the FAITHFUL Partner and Guide of our family! That’s why it’s my pleasure to share my life – the good, bad, and ugly, and how God comes through for me in every aspect of it. HEEHAW!!!

Can you believe she called me about three years ago in Nigeria from the US saying that she wanted to attend the same universe I attended and work on Wall Street because I always talked about my time there. I said let’s go for it! She got accepted to that university with a pretty nice scholarship package! This is the daughter who argues with me over who is God’s favorite, me or her! FAITH AND HARD WORK. baby! They definitely went together.

Even when the momma was going through her little sad/down time, God stood strong with me. Ember and I fought. A lot!!! But she knows it was all from a space of wanting what was best for her. One time I got a report card reflecting too many B’s, and I called her immediately, going crazy, “What is this?” She said some parents would be happy if their kids got this report card. I responded, ‘Those parents don’t have you for a daughter!’ God has exceeded my expectations by sending me the bestest kids!!! (HUGE SMILE)

And when you follow and trust in God (obeying Him and leaving the consequences with Him), He will exceed your expectations, too. Like I can’t get over all I’m learning from a new friend/client, Ceri. When I told him about Ember’s interview with a Wall Street firm, he immediately said, ‘You mean Wall Street has an interview with her.’ I told Ember you go into that interview interviewing them if they will be a good fit for your time and energies!!! You rock, my daughter! Go with that type of confidence!”

Ceri, most importantly is teaching me Godfidence on a whole new level! To know that He is our Life Partner and is at work in the spiritual realm, I should dream big and let God be God. Amen! When I told Ceri about a certain daily profit level that my brother, Jason, inspired me to shoot for at our business, he said double that! And I’m seriously working towards that goal! Today on a breakfast chat group he spoke about not being distracted. When I told him about how I was crushed by a situation that is a huge distraction for me, he told me to rephrase that with “I was disappointed.” He said our words are so important. So, now instead of being crushed, your girl here takes the disappointments and uses them as fuel and motivation to step up her game in all areas. Even my 50 days of discipline are back on!

I suggest you do the same! Everything is between God and us, not between us and anyone else. Let’s ask God to give us the wisdom to use our time and energies well, all for His glory! Amen! No time for getting distracted by useless and unimportant issues. Stay focused on God!!!


That was me to my daughter, Ember, today. She is a first-hand witness of everything going on with the momma – the good, bad and ugly – and how I try to handle everything from the Almighty God’s perspective. Like yesterday after she mentioned that I don’t like confrontations, I explained to her how God has been teaching me about silence. That I should hand Him any of my unsaid words like a bouquet of flowers to Him. That I could say anything to Him, but to others, I should practice being silent as an act of love towards them. And for God, who forever exceeds my expectations, I say, “Ok, I got You!’ What Ember considers a weakness, I call being obedient to God and staying on the high road with Him. But don’t get it twisted; when it’s time for the crazy lady to appear, she does, but not very often. It’s all about constant conversations with God moment-by-moment about what He would have me do.

And when we’re obedient to God, this is how He beautifully guides our lives on the paths that He would have us go. Ain’t always pretty, folks, but God has this way of turning the bad into such good when we learn all the sometimes challenging lessons He would have us to learn. Like me taking my kids to work with me. They hate it! But I know at the end, I’m raising some tough, rugged, fearless, responsible, excellent, persevering, wise and hardworking kids. That’s the plan! Same situation when I ask God, “What is this?” But I now know that it’s ALL from the hands of an incredibly loving God who always wants what’s best for us.

Are you getting to know God? Not a moment of spending time alone with Him is wasted. I find when I don’t go to my God tree and just spend just a few minutes with Him, my days are different than the times I go. Like yesterday was a beautiful time with Him there. Running up, I was playing a song, ‘I Got You,’ and the page I read on our family’s website was a post where I felt God saying, ‘Nik, I got you!’ This was extra special because yesterday was an important day for me regarding something I was handling, and God did have me; I got some excellent news. Thanks, My Love!!! (HUGE SMILE)

My new friend, Ceri, taught me to give God a chance to be God and stop trying to figure out everything for myself. God took control of the situation and exceeded my expectations. The God maniac here was blown away by how God is so intimately involved in our lives. It was months ago that our assistant answered the phone on speaker, and I heard the person calling asking to speak to my husband, and I took the call. That very day I was about to make a terrible decision, and this person was God’s way of saying, ‘Don’t do that, Nik!’ The love of God in action, baby! That phone call was perfectly timed by God Himself!!! And this person didn’t disappoint us, either! Things worked out better than I had imagined!

I loved the message from God through my meditation book that repeated the message from my brother, Kevin, that God wants me to know that I’m secure in Him:

“Remind yourself that I am the One who makes you secure—in all circumstances.” – Jesus Always

Don’t play around with your relationship with God! May this year bring us all closer to Him! Amen!

“Look to the Lord and his strength; seek his face always.” – 1 Chronicles 16:11


Last Sunday, I had the best business brunch with my brother, Jason, to discuss how I can better move our car dealership forward. He made one crucial statement: “You are always talking about God, Nik, but you don’t have confidence in Him.” Wow! That blew the God maniac here away! That was the brutal truth I needed to hear. I was seriously lacking in faith, not only in myself but, more importantly, faith in God. I’m here writing about how God’s wisdom, strategies, favor, solutions, help, and support are available to us on a moment-by-moment basis, yet I was the very one doubting His help. Thanks, J!

Then, the next day, Jason’s friend Ceri asked me to help him call someone to negotiate a vehicle price for him. I told him that it was best for him to call, not me, because I wasn’t good at negotiating deals. He responded, ‘Nah, be confident!” When I thought about it, I asked myself, ‘Nik, why are you so low in confidence?’ Wow! Jason and Ceri highlighted a serious weakness with your girl here.

The next day I bought cars at the auction, and I ran with that confidence lesson! I confidently purchased, even going against some top dealers and beating them! Say what?!? When I told Ceri about it, he said, “You didn’t compete with the big dealers; you are the big dealer!” I’m claiming it in faith, baby! I’m rolling with God, and with Him by my side, I am the big dealer!!! Amen! (HUGE SMILE) God said I should take this business as a lighthearted challenge that He and I are doing together!!! To have fun with it! Yes, Boss!!!

Today, God got in on this confidence talk when this old post showed up at 13 minutes past the hour on page 13 of our family’s website:


That was me freaking out over God, as usual. I was NOT having the usual doubts about everything that was going on with me at the moment and NOT worried and anxious about the future. Suddenly, a thought came out of nowhere, spooking me out even more: Maybe you’re too confident! I thought of how I’m always fussing my daughter, Julie, for being overconfident about her school work and refusing to study. Then 15 minutes later or so, I needed to use the restroom, but it was occupied, so I had to wait. I opened my meditation book, Jesus Calling, on my phone and unbelievably read:

“You have every reason to be confident (Wink! Wink!), because My Presence accompanies you all the days of your life—and onward into eternity.” Wow! God is so intimately involved in all our lives. I opened to the perfect sentence for me at that very moment. Here’s what else He had to say about all those worry and anxious thoughts:

“Do not give into fear or worry, those robbers of abundant living. Trust Me enough to face problems as they come, rather than trying to anticipate them. Fix your eyes on Me, the Author and Perfector of your faith, and many difficulties on the road ahead will vanish before you reach them. Whenever you start to feel afraid, remember that I am holding you by your right hand. Nothing can separate you from my Presence! For I am the LORD, your God, who takes hold of your right hand and says to you, Do not fear; I will help you.”

And this message was confirmed in my other meditation book that I opened for a brief minute when I needed to grab something from my handbag: God: “I will go before you and level the mountains” (Isaiah 45:2). Our Father, thank You for Your intimate Presence in every aspect of our lives. May we always trust You and follow Your guidance. Amen.

Thank you, Jason, Ceri, and God! The confidence level is super high now!!! I know that there is never a moment when God Himself is not with me. It’s just for me to tap into His voice (The Holy Spirit), having constant conversations with God every step of the way. Forget confidence, though; I’m replacing it with Godfidence!!! (Wink! Wink!)


And I’m really enjoying it (HUGE SMILE)! It’s another testimony of the greatness of God when we involve Him in every aspect of our lives. Wow! The way God shows up for me is incredible! About two months ago, I was feeling so stressed and overwhelmed by everything I had on my plate to handle. I was out by the field where I run when my husband called asking for some important info. I’m usually able to easily access that information from my phone, but that morning, I couldn’t access it. And because I try to be this rockstar wife to this rockstar husband, I left that field and went to a little home office I have set up in my husband’s closet to use my laptop. Next to the computer was a book about faithfulness, and it talked about God’s faithfulness. It was exactly what I needed to read on that stressful day, not even imagining how I would tackle the massive assignments I was up against. It quoted this verse:

“So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.” – Isaiah 41:10

Two months later, everything that was a concern for me that morning, I am proud and happy to report that they are all under control. Phew!!! How I got from there to here is a complete and total miracle! My help comes from the Lord, baby! I have to give a big thank you to our rockstar daughters, Ember and Julie. They went hard for me to get lots of the work completed. They stayed up late into the mornings, we went in on Sundays, and we did what we had to do. Thanks, my sweeties! You guys have a ride or die, momma for life!!!

I just got off the phone with my husband, and I asked, “How much does this wife love her husband?” He first said 80%! I jokingly cussed him saying, “This wife loves you infinity percent! I’m your gift from God, and you are my gift from Him. We ain’t perfect, but we’re close!!!” I can’t stop thanking him for the sacrifice he made by giving his blessings for me and the girls to leave him in Nigeria so they could pursue their dream of attending universities in New York. It has been extremely difficult on our marriage, but we felt strongly that God Himself was guiding our family.

Ember said she had dreams of working on Wall Street, the world’s financial capital, with one of the top companies there. Can you believe my daughter interviewed with one of those firms this week and is scheduled for the second round of interviews next week? Again, that’s the help and favor of God in our lives. We kept our eyes on the prize when all the silly distractions came up, staying on the high road with God.

That’s my advice to you today: STAY FOCUSED ON GOD WITH YOUR EYES ON THE PRIZE. The devil is doing his best to distract us by having us fight useless and nonsense battles (especially in our homes! Stay strong!). But when we keep our eyes on God, He lovingly guides us on the battles He would have us to fight. Joshie gave me the brochure from his church last night saying we should support each other. Time and energies are limited, let’s stay focused on being the going the extra mile, supportive, loving and forgiving people God would have us to be. Let me tell you, God gives us more than we can ever ask for or imagine! (WINK! WINK!)


We’ve been married for 20 years now, and most of the time, I go along with him on decisions, and sometimes when I don’t go along with him, I say to him, “Hon, I had to make an executive decision.” Very few times I’ve used this card, and he mostly goes along with me when I do, but yesterday he did not have it, and HE WAS FURIOUS. “Who gave you permission to do that?” he asked. In my mind, I wanted to say God, but I stuck with my line, “Hon, I had to make an executive decision.”

But honestly, it was God who told me to go ahead with that decision. God had this number “411” to show up starting from right before I called the person who helped me to move forward with this decision, then His telephone number incredibly ended in 411, then, throughout the whole entire process, God had the number “411” to show up. We made the deal final on 4/11. I go to write a check to complete the process, and the next check number was “4117.” Then little conversations with this rep, 411 just kept appearing. Even lately, going to a meeting with him and saying how I’m following this “411” lead from God, I’m leaving the meeting five minutes later, and “411” appears on a bus bench outside his building. Like every single step of the way, God appeared with this “411” saying, ‘Nik, I’m with you on this decision.’

So, I waited until hubby cooled down to explain myself to him again. Even though he fussed me out yesterday, God put it in my heart to stay on the high road with hubby (he has earned my love and respect). Can you believe God found a sweet way to let me know He was present at the end of that conversation? I’ve written so many times about how whenever I see 711 or 117 together, I know it’s God’s way of saying, ‘Nik, I’m with you.’ That His invisible Presence is always with me! The conversation with hubs came to exactly 11:17.

God even went as far as to confirm that this was Him when a conversation with our manager today ended in 1:17, with him feeling that it was God again revealing His invisible Presence with us. Amen! And this awareness of God’s Presence gives me the peace and the confidence to move forward (even without hubby’s approval sometimes). God is our ultimate Boss (Wink! Wink!) Hubby, in the end wished us the best with my decision.

“Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight.” – Proverbs 3:5-6


That was the text message to my brother, J, my new business mentor. We had the most delicious brunch yesterday at the Hard Rock Hotel at this high-end restaurant, and I enjoyed every moment. Julie was right when she said if you look up spoilt in the dictionary, you will see a picture of me and her sister, Ember, holding hands. Honestly, that’s the love we feel from God every day, all day. We have strong FAITH in His love! (HUGE SMILE)

Like running back from my God tree one day, feeling stuck and afraid to move forward with our business. God put it in my spirit to call Jason for some advice. He said, “Just, bleeping, do it!” A few days later, I jumped back in to attack buying cars in a very competitive market with a shortage of used vehicles. I needed that push from Jason after I lost all my confidence when my hubby left to return to Nigeria and our manager, Moises, had quit on us. That time alone was perfect for me to build up the courage with God as my close Partner to keep going. This showed up in a recent appointment with God that has now become my phone’s screensaver:

“Have no fear of moving into the unknown. Simply step out fearlessly knowing that I am with you, therefore no harm can befall you; all is very, very well. Do this in complete faith and confidence.” – Pope St. John Paul II

I’m now thanking Moises for quitting because without him to count on as a crutch, I was forced to lean MORE on God. It pushed me closer to God more than ever before, where I know that His invisible Presence is with me in every moment of my life. My son, Emmie (my official critic), said it looked like I couldn’t do anything without Moises. Your girl jumped into action. I said I couldn’t let my kids (who I brought to work with me) see me stagnant and afraid.

“Don’t stop conducting business the way you’re doing it,” a customer said on Saturday. Honestly, they came to buy a car for their daughter, who is about to start the same college where Julie had just finished her last year of high school, and I was so proud to be able to help them. I tell everyone that God is the owner of our business, and we just work for Him. In every aspect of what we do, I get God involved. We have all over our signs, “In God we trust,” so that means honoring Him in all our actions (we try!). From looking for inventory, I seek God in my spirit as to the vehicles He would have me buy, to preparing them for sale by driving them myself, having constant conversations with God every step.

That’s the great news I have for us that we have God PERSONALLY involved in our lives. He is an expert in everything! It’s just for us to learn His voice, acknowledge Him in all our ways by seeking what He would have us do, and be obedient to Him. This has become one of my fav verses:

“I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go; I will counsel you with my loving eye on you.” – Psalm 32:8

Say this prayer: “God, I want a closer walk with You!” Then have faith in His love PERSONALLY for you, too!!!


…It wasn’t about waiting for my situation to change for the better (it actually went from bad to worse to worst!), it was really about God working to change me to be the wife, mom, and person He would have me to be,” was the conversation I had with my brother/angel from God, Kevin, today. And that’s the beautiful testimony I have to share with you guys today about how God is always working with us individually to become our best selves, all for His glory. HEEHAW!!!

‘God, what are the lessons here for me to learn?’ I asked Him when I got my heart broken again. There were many!!! I’m like my son, Joshie, who told me he didn’t want me to go easy on him because he wants to get into the University of Miami. I tell God the same thing, “Don’t go easy on me!!!” I want His tough love because I know that at the end of it all, I’m going to come out better, wiser, tougher, more courageous, loving, merciful, happier, more at peace, and I can go on and on. That’s the love of God, baby! He precisely knows the experiences we each individually need (the good, bad and ugly!). He is a God who is personally involved in bringing out the best in us.

“How are you really, really doing?” my sweetie sister, Marilyn (in the pic with me), asked me today. “I’m fantastic!” I answered. I call her “Madam Faithful” because of the dedication, faithfulness, dependability, and loyalty she demonstrates with a life of love and kindness. Thanks for that example, my boo. May the world learn from you. Amen.

But this quality of faithfulness and loyalty is repaid by God Himself. That’s why I tell you guys that I want to be on the highest road with God no matter what anyone else is doing. I just want to ask God to give me the strength to be obedient to Him, seeking to please Him in all my ways. When I do that, let me tell ya, God exceeds my expectations in every aspect of my life.

Even with this husband who is forever breaking my heart, I stay loyal. I tell God if I must be the poster child for the ride or die faithful wife for Him, no problem, because this husband is truly more than I can ever ask of a husband and father. He has exceeded our expectations. I was just joking with my daughter, Ember, how her sister, Julie, said if you look up spoilt in the dictionary, you will find a picture of Ember and me holding hands. Guilty as charged! I thanked hubs today for the beautiful life and family – he definitely spoils us! Another lesson from God has been learning to love others the way God loves us: UNCONDITIONALLY. Accepting everyone for both their strengths and weaknesses. Nobody’s perfect, y’all!


That was from our manager, Moises, the other day! Honestly, your girl here needed to be called out on where I get it seriously WRONG. I LOVE HUMILIATIONS, BABY!!! They alert me as to where I need to improve. You guys probably have figured out my weakness, too: I carry my husband too much in my head like a crazy lady. In fact, crazy isn’t even the word anymore, totally and completely insane is more like it!!! But, knowing where we are going wrong is half the battle.

Let me tell ya, God is so talkative. He even had a new connection to share this message with me, as to his take on the verse “Be still and know that I am God” verse from Psalm 46:10:

“When we think of be still, we think of be still and stop moving. But in the original Hebrew text, that verse translates into something else. It translates as “let go and know that I am God…being still is important, don’t get me wrong, because you still need to see God work, but if you really, really, really want to see God work, let it go. Let it go. It could be anything in your life… IT COULD BE YOU WORRYING ABOUT A SPOUSE (crazy lady here!!!)… But sometimes, you just have to let it go. Give it to Him. Give God an opportunity to be God.”

Honestly, I was down yesterday not feeling too well, but I used it as an opportunity to really have a heart-to-heart with God to hash out the lessons He would have me to learn. THERE WERE A LOT!!! I was also buying cars at the auction, and I saw the numbers 4-3, so I went to page 43 of our family’s website, and post after post, there was just God speaking directly to me about this crazy lady issue.

The first message was about patience, but I laughed with God because the issue I’m dealing with is never ending, so its more like learning to be content in any situation I find myself, focusing on the good of my hubby (there is so much good!) and covering up and overlooking the rest. PAIN IS A PART OF LIFE, YOU JUST HAVE TO BECOME NUMB. It is what it is, folks! Putting everyone in their proper perspective, not taking anything or anyone too seriously. “On chill (relaxed, enjoying, taking a lighthearted approach) for life” is how Kevin puts it!

I only had time for a quick run today, but God figured out a way to let me know He was with me. So, the first song to play as I started the run was Mario’s version of “Let Me Love You.’ I laughed with God knowing this was all Him reminding me that I must get my love from Him, not from anyone else (including hubby!). Then I stopped on 186 Ave. to turn around, and decided to go to page 18 of our website to see what God had to say to me there, and look what incredibly showed up:

“Girl let Me (God) love you (Wink! Wink!)
And I will love you
Until you learn to love yourself
Girl let Me love you
And all your trouble
Don’t be afraid, girl let Me help” – Ne-yo

See the incredible love God shows me!!! This was no coincidence! I didn’t make it to my God tree, but He figured out a way to let me know that His invisible Presence is always with me. God, forget about it, I’m going to let you be the One to love me from now on. Amen!


That was me to someone who has inspired me greatly recently. He so hit the nail on the head of what I worry about lately that it freaked me out. It was another message from God Himself to me when he had another take on the “Be still and know that I am God” verse from Psalm 46:10:

“When we think of be still, we think of be still and stop moving. But in the original Hebrew text, that verse translates into something else. It translates as “let go and know that I am God.” When I found out that was what that context meant, it hit me like a ton of bricks. When you be still and know that God is in control, obviously, but being still means you can still, in some form of way, hold onto something. You can plant your feet firmly into the ground and hold onto something. You know that He is God, but you’re still holding on. But when you look at the Hebrew and how it was originally written, letting go and knowing that I am God, it gives it a whole different context. Letting go, you give up on it. Like God I don’t want nothing to do with it no more. That’s Yours. Like if you’re in a bad financial position and you don’t see your way out, instead of saying, ‘Lord, I don’t know where I will get this money from. Lord I don’t know how this is going to happen.’ You let go and say, “Lord, that’s Yours. I know it will happen. This Yours. This isn’t any longer for me. This all You.

And that was the original way He meant for it to be. He didn’t mean for us to be still. Being still is important, don’t get me wrong, because you still need to see God work, but if you really, really, really want to see God work, let it go. Let it go. It could be anything in your life. It could be you worrying about a bill (Me!!!!). It could be you worrying about a spouse. It could be you worrying about your own children. But sometimes, you just have to let it go. Give it to Him. Give God an opportunity to be God.”

Confession time! I’m so proud of my fierce daughters, who will both be attending universities in New York this September by the grace of God. But on the other hand, I’M TOTALLY FREAKING OUT OVER THE TUITION BILLS. God, what is this that we’ve gotten ourselves into!!! But when I heard this message, I knew it was God speaking directly to me. I needed to let go and give it to Him to handle.

I have no doubt that both of our daughters will be attending the universities that God Himself PERSONALLY picked out for them. And if I believe that will all my heart, I also have to trust that He knows how every tuition bill will be paid. I can, therefore, show up every day, doing my best with whatever He asks me to do, and I can comfortably leave the rest for Him to work out in the spiritual realm on our behalf.

In fact, I’ve turned the whole thing into a fun game between God and me. I’m taking our business as a lighthearted challenge God and I are working on together, saying, “Momma got tuition bills to pay!” My husband has so much on him, so I didn’t want to add another burden to his plate *which he doesnt mind!), but me wanting to be the superhero mom, I want to step up my work game to assist my hubby. So, a stressful dilemma has now become a fun adventure that God and I are handling together. HEEHAW!!! That’s faith, baby!